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I just wanted to write on this today, to clear my head. I have to constantly let myself know that the only thing that gives me pain, so my preception. And I sure know how to do that, when I get into my dis ease. I have just finished a 2 year project and it will be sent to the printers within the next 3 weeks, do I take pleasure in that accomplishment, no, now I am fear ful of where to look for a job. ha. I have to laugh, I know I must learn to take enjoyment over my accomplishments, but then something comes after them that leaves me sad or fearful. I need to change my preception of this situation, just like I do when my a is using. It is not the end of the world and take time to relax and enjoy. I sure get in touch with I want what I want when I want it.
I will practice giving it up to my Higher Power, wanting that perfect life the way I want it. OK now I got it, I knew I would if I wrote it out. I need to learn to live with what life delivers to me, not how I want it.
It really helps coming on line and reading all the writings. I sure know how to tell others to take one day at a time, but sometimes I know I need to hear it back. :)
I'm glad that you recognize your progress in learning how to change your perspective/attitude on a situation. I often need to remind myself that my attitude is a HUGE part of how I view the world today.
I absolutely adore Maya Angelou and think she is a very wise woman. One of her quotes fits this situation in my opinion -- "Believe that the world owes you nothing." I think it fits because if I truly come from that point of view then I have gratitude for everything in my life.
Take care and enjoy some of this time between projects.
Love and hugs, Jessi
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Hi kb - Enjoyed your post and you are so right. Our perception of situations can give us problems. Sometimes I have to give myself perrmission to enjoy the moment - then I can let go of tomorrow and not spoil today.
I just wanted to write on this today, to clear my head. I have to constantly let myself know that the only thing that gives me pain, so my preception. And I sure know how to do that, when I get into my dis ease. I have just finished a 2 year project and it will be sent to the printers within the next 3 weeks, do I take pleasure in that accomplishment, no, now I am fear ful of where to look for a job. ha. I have to laugh, I know I must learn to take enjoyment over my accomplishments, but then something comes after them that leaves me sad or fearful. I need to change my preception of this situation, just like I do when my a is using. It is not the end of the world and take time to relax and enjoy. I sure get in touch with I want what I want when I want it. 