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My meds seem to have kicked in today and for the first time I have not felt dizzy. I even managed to get out with a neighbour and go for a short walk around a local beauty-spot.
Utterly exhausted and feel as weak as a new born kitten, which rather took me by surprise.
Sleeping is still a HUGE issue, hence my popping into see the family at all hours of the day and night. However, doc told me to sleep when I can and get up when I cannot instead of tossing and turning so here I am once again with a mug of hot milk and honey.
Been checking up on H A L T, now that I know the term and it has really helped me these last few days.
Hunger has not been an issue as I lost my apetite after being so sick and billious for weeks on end, and in any case I cannot stand long enough to cook so it has been a bit of a hit and miss affair - though I have survived on porridge, porridge, fruit, porridge, more porridge and wait for it...yep you got it, more porridge (can make it in my microwave in two and a half minutes!), fruit and raw vegatables...not the best of menus but surfice for a short time. Drinking gallons of water and the occasional mug of milk with honey. Lol.
Anger, well yes that jumped out of my pandora's box the other day after reading a post, which rather shook me and I have spent some time addressing various sources - great time to do fourth step analysis when you are stuck in bed!
Lonely hmm well funny enough, no, not had much contact with the outside world, no visitors, or phone calls, or letters, but then again did not expect anyone so did not miss them. And in anycase I spent most of the time asleep or popping in here or trying to make myself something to eat. Everything else has gone by the board!
Tired - all the time so not even tried to fight that right now. Gone to sleep, when ever, where ever.
Took time out when I just could not read the board let alone post for a day or too, but then I found as I was not actually talking to anyone, reading and talking here helped me keep myself from feeling I was locked in a cell in a solitary confinement wing. Lol.
You should see my prayer list. It has grown so much since I have been here, however, it is something that I can do that does not take a lot of energy, and I certainly have the time as I am on long term sick and at home 24/7 for the foreseeable future.
Got to say thank you again (((((family)))))) for all your shares, I am learning so much and facing up to quite a number of monsters, well recognising them for what they are and putting them in my journal as further fourth steppers. I cannot face them all at once.
Thank you everyone who has responded to my last few posts and thank you for letting me respond to some of the most amazing posts ever during these 'sick' days.
Think this has been one of my better days, and I am hoping that it will keep on getting better, though I am sure I will take a number of nose dives before my journey is over, however that is not so scarey now 'cos I know I will manage to get back up again with a little bit of help from my [friends] family. Tee hee. Tired now, so I am going to go back to bed. Lots of love to all of you, dear folk. Sending you peace from across the pond.
HeartB
-- Edited by Heartbroken at 22:41, 2008-01-23
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(((HB))) SO glad you are feeling a little better today. HALT is an wonderful acronym. It's one of my favorites - and I find it amazingly effective when I think about it. So many of my frail moments can usually be traced back to it. It really makes me slow down and take care of myself. I'm still working on "cures" for angry and lonely - but I try not to let those two get in the way too much. I pray and write about them and hope that I can ease them right on out of my life.
Take good care of yourself - and keep up the porridge and hot milk and honey!
So glad to hear you are feeling better. It's so good to hear you are out and about again. Take care of yourself. Go slowly and don't overdo it.
I too am learning a lesson about HALT. I have been home sick for 2 days now. I think I have been guilty of not paying attention to being tired. I'm on the mend now. One more day at home in bed for me then it's back to work.
Get some rest.
Love and Blessings,
Claudia
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HB glad to hear you like you usually are here. My hope is for your continued improvement and porridge is a great thing, I eat a lot of it, too. Hugs, J.
I see soooooo much progress and think you are doing amazing. Thank you for sharing with us. Your share is testament to what so many others before me told me that this program works if you work it and you are worth it.
Love ya, Maria
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So glad you had a better day and I wish for you, more days of continuing to feel even better. I like HALT too and glad to see you are giving yourself the TLC you deserve. Thought become things so think good thoughts. (c:
hugs, ddub
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I am only working on the physical food type hunger at this time, all that can wait, but if I am not eating I will only delay, or even compound my recovery. I will look at emotional hunger when I am in a fit state, but thank you for the reminder.
That is yet ANOTHER fourth step analysis to go in my journal for future work. My TO DO LIST IS GROWING. ahhhhhhhhh!
Susan
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