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I am on day two of being home from work sick! I do NOT enjoy it. Would much rather be at work. Not sure what it is yet, achy head, sore throat and a little coughing..but no fever so far.
This new year has started out sorta bumpy in some ways...didn't get a job I wanted, now sick..and I don't get sick often!
I woke up this morning hoping to be better and alas, throat worse than yesterday.
First thing I did after assessing my "condition" was start my daily prayer of gratitude to my Higher Power. As I was doing this the little "voices" in my head were saying things like "So....you are grateful you are sick?" "You are grateful you didn't get that promotion?"
Hmmmmm....
I thought about that. And in very short order I replied to the little "shitty committee" in my head. Well, I don't think my HP got me sick. That is probably because I have NOT been taking good care of myself lately. I have been burning the candle at both ends...not getting nearly enough sleep and not eating very well. So no wonder I caught something while my body is weakened. The gratitude comes in that...I picked up the phone today! instead of waiting for a few more days, like I used to, and made appointment to go see my doc! I am grateful I see the sense in that now. I am grateful I have a doctor willing to "work me in" at short notice. I am grateful I have health insurance and the ability to pay my part for my health care!
Then I told the "little darlings" in regards to the job....Yes I was/am still a little disappointed. It was something I have worked towards for many years to get to that position. And don't think it didn't hurt to have someone else swoop in there and take "my job!". But! I reminded my buddies up there in the attic that I had prayed before I interviewed for the job. I had asked my HP for His will to be done. I am grateful that someone else will be working at my office now. Someone as competent as I am to help me. Someone to be there on days like today when I am sick to take off the pressure I always feel when I am not there. The world does go on without David having to be there for everything. I am grateful for the freedom it will give me to pursue other committments.
So, the gloomy gus's upstairs sorta got real quite and let me be.
Then I came in here to see what everyone is up too! I got to read Jean's post about "Emotional Incontinence" ... the term has made me smile. I will be using it at some point...I can just feel it!! lol
So here I sit, with my fuzzy slippers on waiting for doc to call. I have everything I need. I made a big pot of soup last nite, so I won't starve! I have loving friends who know I'm sick and call to check on me (hey the ex never did that...with her it was sink or swim buddy!..lol).
I hope each of you finds something to be grateful for today. And, as always, I am ever grateful for Al-Anon, my face to face groups and Miracles in Progress. You all rock! You are all my brother's and sisters.
I'm right there with ya buddy. I've been feeling yucky for 5-6 days now. Was on the sofa for 3 of them. If I cough much more I'm going to have great 6 pack abs! We have the RSV (Respiratory syncytial virus). My 3 yr. old grandson ended up in the ER :( No real treatment, just has to run it's course.
I chose to pull the grateful card too. My son has been doing laundry and dishes when he can, in between school and work. I'm very grateful for him. I'm also grateful that if he didn't do it I realize the world is round, someone will get to it. I used to be in a place that wouldn't allow me to lay down if there were dirty dishes or laundry. I'd feel too guilty. LOL! I actually think that's funny now. Guilty of what? The great laundry God might admonish me? I might be considered lazy even though I was sick? sheesh!!! who cares?
My guess is that you didn't get that job cuz HP wants you to have the time to flit around the country and enjoy life. If all your needs are met, why take on more work? LOL! (hippy at heart) Besides, you can not only enjoy the traveling, but just think of all the "Elvis Goodness" you can spread to others. :)
Love ya Christy
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Sorry to hear you are not feeling too good, but hey that soup pot is wonderful when one is not up to doing much. And when the body is sick it needs rest, rest and more rest. so put your feet up, snuggle down into that comfy chair, drink plenty and enjoy the time out the best you can and sleep if you need to.
Glad you have friends to check on you too.
Ever the optimist, I always find something to be grateful for in every situation, and during my time of sickness I have done all sorts of things. I spend time praying for those people who have noone to pray for them and for our family member in this forum, and have got through alot of reading to, and learnt to take one day at a time by turning the clock to the wall and letting my body clock dictate what it wants, when it wants. Your body will appreciate you honouring it by taking time to be kind to yourself.
Hope you will soon be feeling much bettear/
SENDING YOU, AND ALL THOSE WHO ARE NOT FEELING WELL AT THIS TIME MY BEST WISHES FOR A SPEEDY RECOVERY. Heartbroken.
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David, thanks for posting, I always enjoy reading what you have to say. You are a good writer and I can tell you are a good story-teller, too.
I am sorry you are sick and did not get the promotion. Not getting a promotion really can be painful and I know for me, feels personal ("not good enough") when it has happened but like you said, its HP's will, not ours and it has to do with so many other factors beyond our control. Yeah, its good for me to remember that I have that committee in my head, too- and they are not ME, they are the disease.
It is really beneficial to show me how you work your program. Like Jerry did recently, being so "transparent" about how you work your program in certain situations is really is a great role model to the kindergardeners among us (me)!
I am really grateful for your presence here. Hugs, J.
I was definitely with a sink or swim A so I can certainly relate. I hope I never have to entertain that level of disappointment again. I am so sorry you did not get the promotion you deserved. How wonderful you can put your feelings out there. Most of the time I feel out of control with my emotions and not in control with them. I have to very careful around triggers and work is one of them. Back in the old days I used to imagine the A was my only problem!!!
I am also so glad to hear of you taking care of yourself. I often feel taking care of myself is a foreign subject with no index, no guidebook no nothing for me. I was far far far more comfortable telling everyone what they "should" do.
It is a challenge to be grateful to be sick and hope you are feeling better much sooner than later. I continue to be amazed how our mental, physical and emotional systems are so closely related - when one is stressed the others are affected. I've known this for a long time but I am either more aware as I get older or it is more of a dramatic effect now.
Sending you good wishes for the wellness fairy to bonk you on the head.
hugs, ddub
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Thank you for sharing your wisdom. I appreciate your ESH and enjoy reading your posts.
I too would rather be in the will of my HP than to have a job or anything I wanted that was not what my HP wanted for me. I have found that when I put my life in his care, I am always at peace even in the midst of the worst storms of life.
Hope you are feeling better!
Love and Blessings,
Claudia
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Well hubby and I are both and we're feeling it. But we had 2 days off together and decided despite the list of things to do it was okay to do nothing. Like you, we are still recouperating slowly. (I'm still catching up from the holiday retail hours and he's still recouperating from the grandkids!) That's the name of the game, take things slowly. It's okay to have Piper Kitty days. It's our body way of saying TAKE CARE OF ME!
So enjoy the serenity of being sick. Curl up with Da' Boys and take extra good care of you. Love and blessings to you and your boys. Feel better soon.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty (who also has the sniffles!)
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Sounds like you've done all the right things, David. Even to the point of realizing you're not indispensable :) How's that for a dash of humility? For real, I hope you feel better soon soon soon. Did ya put some chicken noodle in that soup? How about hot pepper? lol mspw
I have loving friends who know I'm sick and call to check on me (hey the ex never did that...with her it was sink or swim buddy!..lol).
and we're feeling it. But we had 2 days off together and decided despite the list of things to do it was okay to do nothing. Like you, we are still recouperating slowly. (I'm still catching up from the holiday retail hours and he's still recouperating from the grandkids!) That's the name of the game, take things slowly. It's okay to have Piper Kitty days. It's our body way of saying TAKE CARE OF ME!