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geez, I need some special thoughts to hp please......
Today I was hooking up a lead to my llama Campbell, we are in an tiny corner, the neighbors three silly baby steers ran up.
They scared llama who twisted around, rope went around my right leg, pulled me down, llama pushed me I landed on my tail bone on a sharp rock and was trampled. Bruised pretty bad, thought he busted my foot, it is tore up and bruised, butt is cracked, geez tail bone is cracked lol
thank goodness I had driven my truck over there. tied the lose goat yummy to my tail gate and drove home slowly. grabbed and hobbled into my bunkhouse.
thougth ok ok I am ok. tried to get up...nope and still thinking this is ALL the frigging A diseases fault, he left here, he should be here, I want my mom, my daddy, gpa, bil, geez blaming a the whole time.
geez. like the disease cares.
I can't get up thank hp I had my cell in my pocket. got friends who will come help get me to er now.
but I amlaying there in my stretch boxer shorts..and a dirty from feeding t shirt and all dirty from being tramped....can'tget up, can't get clean, or dressed...gads.
My friends come, ALL my dogs freak....the wild llasa is going nuts outside, she tries to come in and the five in here go to get her. she gets in and Herbert old basset proceeds to try to bite her and is growling which wakes up big luster pig who stands up,and goes and gets into the dog food. Icannot get up to take it away so my poor friend is trying to get this bag of food away and he is grumping and growling like a lion at her.
He is all talk but the poor thing my friend is so freaked out now.lol lol the parrots at this point are laughing their green and yellow heads off...
I am trying to get my new jeans on, slim style i must add, I have lost sixty seven pounds so far, only fifty or so to go...anyway at this point my great pyr decides he must protect me from my bed so hops up and lays behind me.
Then Tavish basset hops up landson my foot, I am screaming he hops on it again. I down three darvocet..jeans half way up. got them up.
got the dog food from Luster pig who cusses me out.
I hobble out with two canes and lay in the back seat of her car.
We go to er packed. tell them my cell number and go to the cafeteria and eat. I sorta lay on the cushion thing and eat. was good, after being on darvocet I was so hungry. had not eaten all day. get called to go back. have to take my jeans off. uhoh I said I don't know i I can get them back on ....lol ok u ladies may know the lay on the bed thing.
sigh wellanyway it is all the A diseases fault,even my pants being hard to get up and buttoned, 501's.
sigh. so now left legs all joints blown, butt needs a cast but impossible, rightfoot will be cast for protection tomorrow. carpel tunnel in right hand kills me to use crutches or cane...
alanon teaches me it will all be ok and it will but is alanon going to come and help me feed many hungry mouths tomorrow??? haha
WEll in my dreams I am going to dream about flying tonight....
thank you for listening. love,debilyn feeling sorry for her poor body.
I am so sorry you were hurt. You are such an independant woman I know it is hard for you to have your mobility limited. Maybe HP's way of getting you to rest a bit? But the way you tell your stories is so great. I heard your resentments creeping in ( I had some this morning against the A and all I was doing was picking up garbage that an animal had gotten into!) but you don't stay stuck. You just acknowledge and move on. Special prayers for your toes.
AAARRGH! I'm so sorry this happened!!! I swear you can't predict all the ways to get gumby'd up!! A llama scared by baby steers!! A pig in the dog food, parrots laughing hysterically while the dog jumps on your smashed foot . . .
And then of course I have to say I too "blame" the exA for everything that goes wrong here. Well, it's different than pure blame, it's that WE put this place together as OUR dream and them he cuts out and whenever I would normally go to him and say "hold this dam goat for me", well, he's not here. I didn't plan on doing all this myself. So I relate on that one.
We humans are just not meant to live alone, without each other. And every time something super 'fun' like happened to you happens, I am reminded of that.
Serendipity says it perfectly; 'the resentments creeping in', that's exactly what it is for ME. It's still very hard to look around my place and not get triggered to resent. Thanks Miss S for this reminder . . .
Deb please, even if all you can do is lie there with your leg elevated, keep in touch here even if just to holler OOOOOOUCH!!, so we can cheer you up and help you laugh or cry or whatever you need to do to get through this!
I stopped blaming the ex. He could do nothing right in the end. He just messed every single thing he did up. I do know some of what it is to be responsible for stuff he set up. I also know I have to let go. I have my hard days and then I have my good days. I work towards getting better and getting better circusmtances. I can well understand what it is to live in a tiny tiny space with animals. I never imagined I would go there.
wow, after hearing about that it makes me glad I stuck to my rule of remaining animal free until I get a job and new home...and I love animals! Take care, wish I could be near by to come help u out. I would if I could. I love goats and llamas, etc.
