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His (my A) moodiness got to me tonight, don't know if it was me being tired from being with the grandkids all day and trying to get my normal chores done...or if he was just moody...I sent him to bed 1/2 way through a movie as I didn't want to listen to him snore anymore...then came into the bedroom to find him sleeping/passed out and no remote....I want to set the timer so I can watch it until I fall asleep, not much to ask.......nooooooooooo remote..I lift the blankets and search and search, I eventually wake him so he can move....Maybe he is laying on it...now I can feel myself getting angry because he is angry that I woke him up...but I tell him that he would be aggravatied too if he were the one looking for it....ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww then I go to the bathroom...while I'm in there he says "oh yeah it's on the floor because it wouldn't work" WHAT!?!?!? SO YOU THREW IT????? I could feel myself getting all worked up, how irresponsible...oh yeah it's on the floor all right....in about 5 or 6 pieces!!!! So then I yealled "I WISH I WAS MARRIED TO A GROWN UP" Of course I got the "WHATEVER" I've decided that I will live on the edge and turn the volume down some and leave it on ALL NIGHT LONG!!! SO THERE....LOL Thanks for listening, I feel better just posting....
Sorry you had a rough night. I've slipped so many times in my program that it's a good thing I have lots of padding back there. The beauty of recovery is that we get to restart it any time we want to.
Don't tell anyone, but there are days when I just feel like picking a fight with my A! Sometimes he says things, that can be very innocent in nature, and I think "Boy if I said what I'm really thinking, we could have one heck of a fight! It would fee good too!" Good thing I'm learning to count to 100! Hope you got some well needed rest.
Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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Be gentle with yourself today... it is so wonderful to have a place to release all that. Boy have I been there...
Over the past year we have had some of those lone spiriling conversations of poor poor pitiful me (her)... and I caught myself the other day cutting her off on what I percieved as one of those starting up. The truth is, I jumped the gun and got irritated about something she hadn't done yet.
Of course she got upset and that caused the conversation to indeed go badly... but, today I just have to look at that as a lesson for me. I am sure I will have a new oportunity to try and do it different... soon. LOL
You are a good person, in the midst of something very hard to deal with... hope you can give yourself a break and take on today as a brand new day that is not a leftover from yesterday.
That is what I am going to try and do. *smile*
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
You didn't say "if you weren't an A" or You stupid A" You said you "wish you were married to a grown up", which would be a normal honest reaction to anyone that threw a remote. If you mean "slipped" because you lost your cool, well who wouldn't for such a juvenile act? We don't need to treat them with kid gloves because they are A's, he is still an adult. Being an A is not an excuse for such childish behavior. I hope he trots his butt to the store for a universal remote today.
Christy
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If we think that miracles are normal, we will expect them. And expecting a miracle is the surest way to get one.
(((((((((Mary))))))))), I know when I am frustrated and not in a good place already I am more apt to snap at something than if I was in a serene place. We are human. :) We slip. Living with an active "A" is it is bound to happen at times. You know you're not alone. Sending hugs and serenity your way :). Love ya. Mandy
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"We are not punished for our unforgiveness, we are punished by it" Jim Stovall
I am sending you the trophy cause I don't think I can one up that one!! LOL Are you gonna tell the group how you did a tenth step on this one? Holding my breath.
Don't tell anyone, but there are days when I just feel like picking a fight with my A! Sometimes he says things, that can be very innocent in nature, and I think "Boy if I said what I'm really thinking, we could have one heck of a fight! It would fee good too!" 
Good thing I'm learning to count to 100! Hope you got some well needed rest.
