...is a new experience, and for the first time in my life I am finding that I am doing the talking and telling and asking for guidance.  This is quite liberating, whilst scarey too.

However, having always been there for others it is strange to put myself first and reach out.  I am comfortable, I am in control: not physically abused just listened too and respected.

Respected.  That is what keeps coming to mind.

No-one shouts at me and tells me I am stupid and therefore I do NOT feel worthless.  I like that.  It is like balm and it is being poured into my open wounds. 

Needed, indeed, wanted to share this with you as this is simply w o n d e r f u l.

Now I am doing more than ...just breathing...

Thank you.