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This may not make sense or seem rational because I am typing as I am thinking and I have lots running through my head about this.......
I am a big fan of Law & Order: SVU. I just the watched episode about the A mother who drank vodka and it talked about the feelings of children of alcoholics may feel and their opinions. If you have seen the episode then you may agree with me but that is one way I can describe the episode. Anyways, how this links to me......
It made me think about my situation at home.I thought of how bad I reacted and dealt with living in my house with two alcoholic parents. I remember thinking I need to get into Alanon or something along this line - aka I need to get myself help. I said to myself "I need to force myself into Alanon. It's not like with my friend's death and the griefing process. I can't wait until I accept it, I admit I need help, etc. I need to force myself to go there - and sooner than later."
I'm not sure if I want/should force myself to do it while I am away from home - being at college makes me be three hours from home - or wait til I get back home in about four months. I just don't know.
I can't tell you how many times I've heard people say "I sure wish I would have went sooner". I wish I would have went 20 yrs ago but I doubt I would've gotten what I needed from Alanon at that time. What I like about the program is the "in all our affairs" part. The program works with friends, people you work with, people you love and a host of other things that crop up in our lives. There are husbands, wives, sisters, brothers, boyfriends, girlfriends, sons, daughters, friends etc. that attend meetings. People from all walks of life. I'm sure you'll fit in :) If you are feeling you need to go, listen to your inner voice. It may be HP tapping you on the shoulder.
Christy
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If we think that miracles are normal, we will expect them. And expecting a miracle is the surest way to get one.
My esh is that when I went to college growing up in an alcoholic home really manifests itself. I had no confidence and I literally carried this burden on my back and couldn't figure out what it was. I didn't know about being an ACA then and didn't know that there were meetings. So I would encourage you to check out the possibilities. Any help is beneficial.
I'd say there's no better time than the present and maybe being away from home would actually be beneficial as far as not running into anyone you know from home at a meeting. I'd start going there and go at home too, you don't have to just pick one to go to.
I agree with "No better time like the present" comment. Why wait? In fact, being away from the chaos may actually help in getting some answers that you can find during an alanon meeting. And you may find it could help out w/the next four months of school too. All positive things can come from doing this now and in waiting, you are only delaying your healing. Find a meeting and start working on you NOW! Don't wait. Good luck to you.
