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All, Only 2.5 more weeks till my delivery date. I have to admit that fears come up regularly about whether or not I need to get to the hospital. I chose to not be near family and it seems like I get reminded by my family of that a lot. But of course its my own guilt about it rather than their issue. The AH will come 10 days before and I have a plan to keep my support in tact while he is here. I am still not great at getting rid of lonliness and self-pity which I had long before the AH arrived on the scene. And if I have to tell him to leave or go to a hotel, I know my lonliness and self-pity will crop up and I am not great at surrendering them. But I figure, the more I turn-over my feelings whether the A is present or not, the better I will be when he is around. Surrendering my feelings is not easy, especially when they are a jumbled mess in my head. I am hoping that HP will give me more strength in this area as time goes on. So far, the only way I have been able to not react to them and have them "leave my mind and body" is to journal or forget myself by listening to others. This is rambling on but just want to share where I am at today. Thanks.
I don't know your story but can see you have much to think about. Journals and writing your feelings here are great things for you to do. When I have so much going on in my head, writing them down let's me reread and have some clarity about all the things I'm thinking but one at a time. Reading or listening about others and getting some feedback here has always been a great help for me too.
Take good care of yourself and thanks for sharing. Keep coming back!
hugs from ddub
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((((Goldie))))) I can relate to worried feelings during pregnancy, especially near the end. I actually worried about everyting including getting to the hospital. HP has a way of working things out and in the end you will have a wonderful bundle of joy to love. Take good care of yourself. Ask for help when you need it (that is a really hard thing for me). Keep us posted!
