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My program was put to the test yesterday when I came home. Without going into too much details, lets just say there was a hiccup in recovery. I thought something might be going on, but I wasn't sure. Well AH told me very calmy with tears in his eyes. He was so ashamed. The old me without this program would have been angry, searched the house and thrown out anything I could have gotten by hands on. Not this time, we talked about it and what the next step would be. I did have those old nots in my stomach and I cried later for him. It's such a hard battle they fight. I read some of my meditations from More on the Language on Letting Go, especially the ones on fear. I understand what happened. But I told him that I was proud of him for telling me, and that I still love him dearly.
Well this morning, all is well and back on track. We were talking this morning about how good we both did in staying in the present and taking it ODAT. Today is a new day, and somehow the still manages to come out. I have no fear of going to work, wondering what I'll come home to. It was a humbling and enlightening experience for us both. Perhaps it was HP reminding us of what could be, and reminding us about Step 1. The beauty of recovery is that we can start all over any time we want. I thank this program and all of you for showing me the great experience, strength, hope, wisdom and humor. What a wonderful family I have here.
Much love and blessings to you and your family. Kiss the critters for me.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
You have both been through so much and just as life seems to be getting back on track there is another hump in the road. I sense by your posting that inwardly you are calm so I have faith that you will get through this. Thinking of you both and sending strength your way. Luv Leo xxx
(((Karilynn))) Thank you for being brave and sharing this with us. I am continually amazed by your faith and perserverance for your program and your AH. You will both be in my prayers. So glad your hubby was able to be forthcoming and honest to share with you, that shows that there is still strong recovery skills in him. I am learning that even during the rocky times it doesn't have to be so disastrous to break apart everything that was re-built, it can strengthen and bring people closer together. Sounds like that is what is going on in your home. Will pray for continued peace, recovery, and strength.
Peace to you, Twinmom~
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"The people who don't mind matter and the people who mind, don't matter". (Dr. Seuss)
Please know, Karilynn, I am thinking of you with love and caring. ODAT really applies. Best wishes to you, hubby, and Pipers Kitty. All of you will be fine.
Diva
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"Speak your truth quietly and clearly..." Desiderata
You and your AH have been through SO much. He has a gem of a wife in you, and it sounds like he knows it :) I'll keep the both of you in my thoughts and prayers today. Tell him to live strong from all of us here, never give up! Kim
Honesty is everything. I could deal with the A if he were honest but he is not so I never now what is coming around the corner. It is one huge factor in letting go for me, the lies, the deceit and the expectation that I will accept and help him with anything while he does not reciprocate.
I am so glad you can appreciate the honesty. I crave it.
still manages to come out. I have no fear of going to work, wondering what I'll come home to. It was a humbling and enlightening experience for us both. Perhaps it was HP reminding us of what could be, and reminding us about Step 1. The beauty of recovery is that we can start all over any time we want. I thank this program and all of you for showing me the great experience, strength, hope, wisdom and humor. What a wonderful family I have here.
