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I don't even know what to write. I just wanted for someone to remember her with me :( Her mother didn't have a funeral for her and sent me a copied paper saying she brought her daughter home in a beautiful bronze box. Sorry but that didn't say "good-bye" to me. It was selfish on her part. She said that's what Amber would have wanted. I doubt that. She asked her when she was dying...who in their right mind is going to say "no mom, please have everyone come and say good-bye..."??? So Amber...as she always did, made it easy on her mom. I'm the ONLY one that knows what Amber was drinking for. She numbed herself. Her BIL was molesting and raping her and Amber wouldn't say a thing because she didn't want to break up her sisters marriage. She made me promise not to tell. I didn't. One day I asked if I could speak with her mother in front of her and she agree'd and Amber hung her head in complete shame and her mother said "well Amber...you shouldn't be wearing your bathing suit in front of him!!" Amber just accepted that and took on that guilt. That's when all hell broke loose. I stood up in her mothers face and asked "how in the hell could you blame your daughter?" My Amber drank herself to death. Amber died at 36. Amber was about 5'9" and long long curly beautiful brown hair, big brown eyes and would ALWAYS greet you with love. Even if she didn't know you she would grab your hand and hold it and look into your eyes to let you know you were important even as a stranger. She took care of any animal she saw (she was crazy like that) it drove me nuts. lol She would walk out to her canal and a million turtles knew she was coming and they would all have their heads poking out. She found comfort there. I guess they couldn't harm her. She went through several treatments (but guess who was always there? yup, the BIL) because no one knew or they just didn't care about the BIL. If you're ever lucky enough to have a friend like this then consider yourself blessed. We were friends for 15 years and you'd think we were sisters. She had half of my soul and I feel that part of me is gone. I just don't feel her anymore and that crushes me. Not even in a million years could there be another like her. So please remember her with me today and say a quick prayer that she is free from the pain she felt here. Thanks friends.
She sounds like such a beautiful person. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Do something nice for you today.
In Recovery,
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
Thank you MIP. I think I'm going to get some balloons and set them free with the kids. They never got to say good-bye either. Maybe I will have them write something to her. Again.....Thank you for being there. When I saw all of these post to me it made my heart smile. :)
(((friendofyours)))my prayers are with you. i hope the day was a beautiful one for you.and of ((amber))... im sure she was close to you and your children today. know that she loved you very much and will always be with you. keep taking care of you.
The crime and tragedy enrages me....and the love she had and you had for her lives on so loud and clear in your words. THANKYOU for sharing Amber with us...as a total stranger, I will always remember your story. My prayers to you and so much love in remembering such a loving soul, Fifi
I didn't know your Amber but I know her now because of what you wrote about her. I was in tears reading it.
I have a wonderful cousin who passed suddenly last Feb and I miss her so much. I've had a lot of deaths this year but hers broke my heart to pieces. I do believe everytime we think about them they are here with us. Your Amber lives in our hearts too.
((((Hugs and thanks for giving her this tribute, I know she appreciates and knows)))))
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