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So while I left the A he managed to get a criminal charge for leaving the scene of an accident. On to of that he has 3 speeding tickets he has not paid an an illegal turn. He somehow seems to be able to think that he can work that out without losing his license good luck. In the interim he's basically totalled the truck. His modus operandi is still the same, cry for help, then shut down and go back out and act out in some way. This has been the entire relationship, mess up, blame someone else, dig another hole for himself.
Now as his Uncle has said he has dug a hole he can't get out of. He has no money yet he spends all day and al night trying to fix a car he should have just left by the roadside years ago. He wants me to go live with him under those circumstances. If I don't I am the meanest most unkind person in the world.
when I spoke to his Uncle recently he said maybe jail will save him. Maybe it will. My anxiety of course is through the ceiling because I want to get my dogs somewhere before he totally flips out.
I have not got there yet. And of course the a sticks his hand out every single time he sees me without fail. He always has a "need" no matter what he has the need.
I gave him one days food yesterday. He went and got food stamps for himself. He's still of in la la land most of the time. He has no concept he's made such a huge huge mess he can't get out of it.
He just blames everyone in the world for it including me. One minute he's demanding my help, next ignoroing me. That's the story of our relationship, what relationship is that. He can't tell the truth for one second, he messes every single thing he does up. He cries blue murder that he doesnt feel well after spending the whole week in bed. He wastes years on a car that never worked in the first place Please pray I can get a space for my dogs. I'm at a place he can die. I've done my best. He can just die because that's really all he wants to do with his reckless driivng and smashing every single thing in sight all the time. He can do it. I just don't want my dogs destroyed in the process and he could clearly care less about them. .
Maybe you could talk to a breed rescue or spca to put you in touch with a family to foster your dogs. I've never tried it but maybe good to try. But try.
I had a beautiful chow mix. I drove her from Tenn. to Florida to live with my Mom for about 6 months. I picked her up too soon. My A wouldn't let her in the house, she had always been a house dog. She was neater and more well mannered than the kids. One day my A was furious that stray cats were walking on his car and laid out antifreeze in bowls. I didn't know about it. My Rosie drank it. By the time I realized she was sick it was too late. I know he didn't kill her on purpose, but HE killed her. Going extreme over little things. That was 10 or 11 years ago. I get angry still to think about it now. The old me kept quiet about things to keep the peace. I should have fought him on the treatment of defensless animals.
Why can't you find someone to take the dogs and give them good homes? Someone who can afford them? They need physicals, heartworm meds, ect. Neither of you are in a posistion to care for animals. If you want I would be more then happy to help you find rescues in your area that are non kill. As always, I wish you the best. Take care of yourself.
