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Sometimes I feel bad for posting my "woes" because I am very fortunate to not be living with an active alcoholic ~ having said that ~ here is my woe for the moment.
I went to my GRE class where they zipped through geometry equations and the like. UGH ~ I nearly got whiplash for as fast as they went through the information. I was completely lost and found it difficult to stay in the moment. My mind kept wandering from thoughts of complete inadequacy (self talk like "what an idiot I am") to feelings of resentment like "Why the heck do we need to know half of this stuff - being out there in the real world I know for certain I've never had reason to be able to find the length of an isosceles triangle when given the other two dimensions!! UGH!!! And lastly, I kept resenting the teacher for going to fast and certain students for complicating what was already complicated enough!!!
Just had to vent ~~
Any advice for staying in the moment during times like this???
Heck I'm happy to hear from someone who's not living with an active alcoholic! Alanon teaches me that active or not, I got STUFF to deal with :D . But anyway, I took the GRE back in the early nineties and did TERRIBLY. What in the world is an isoceles triangle??? All that stuff bounced off my head in highschool. Much, much too interested in boys.
For me staying in the present moment is a general thing. Lately it's been difficult, I'm facing financial challenges, legal challenges, but yet I need everything I have to keep up with the day to day activities.
Today I finished milking the goats and walked through a pile of garbage I so carefully picked up out of the yard yesterday. My great pyrenees guard dog, still a pup at 7 months, was apparently lacking stimulation last night. She also tried to play with a turkey about midnight, so I've been a little worried about the turk, they are sensitive to stress. Then I start thinking about losing the little turkey, and that it's female and I NEED at least one female, and then I start thinking about all the other messes to clean up in the yard and what happens if I can't sell my goat kids and pretty soon I want to go to bed and suck my thumb.
I just turn it over and over! It never occured to me until recently that HP cared about my farm and animals, cared about my financial situation, cared about my stress level, etc. But HP does. So I give it over and pray for acceptance.
I don't know if this will help you find the length of an isoceles triangle given the two other angles, but insert whatever issue you are having with your racing thoughts and HP cares. So much is beyond our control, especially geometry :D .
