Let me update u on what has been going on . I went to the doctor and he told me to stop taking the Lexapro. I needed to start more of my mellari a tranquiller I am on a higher dose, I went from 50 to 150 mgs. Then On Thursday I ran out of my 18mg concerta last week, and I have been on the 54mg this week since Friday. I am feeling pretty good. I have been taking showers every other day so that part is good. I feel good about my self I care the was I look it a great feeling. I not have the obsessions I have once had. Of course there is still some left until today. I went an was buying music from i-tunes wasnt able to break that habit, however yesterday I cut up my credit card so now I only have my bank card, so this is going to force me to save like I used to.

Last Friday I went clubbing with the girls. On Saturday I also went out with the girls and we did girl things. I had a great time with them. I havent really had in my adult life Female friends to do things with. So it was nice I enjoy every min of it.

Also I was off a week and on the  13-18 of June I am supposed to riding for this girl and I get over time. The week I was off the guy was trying to take the over time from me, he not anyone really to make that decision. Well when I return to the girl who is going to be out told me what he was going to do and she told me dont let him take that overtime from you. So I thought about it and I agreed that it wasnt right what he was going to pull, so I stood up for myself  and got the overtime. So I didnt let this situation get me upset and withdrawn I talked to the person I was supposed and it is fixed. First the guy that is causing the problem told me it was good I was standing up for me self. He the type of guy who you think is your friend and he is not. However when the overtime started he had to make comments about so again I didnt let him upset me and didnt let him know he upset me and I took charge and went to talk to the person who does make the decision and told that person who is going to talk to that person.

In a couple of weeks from now I have been invited to stay the weekend with the girls and this is the first time I am doing this. I am preparing myself for a lot of alcohol. I am excited that they asked me to go with them away. This is like my friend pj party with the girls so this is going to be interesting. Hopefully I can handle it, I am going to do it and see how I like it. I just have to keep that in mind that it going to have alcohol, but I am not going to make that a focus like at the clubs I go to. Of course I am a  little nervous about it but I was with them a couple of hours on Saturday and wanted to stay longer so I think this will be ok.

By working the program I have learned to stand up for myself, and feel the serienty. I am working with a great sponsor. Been in the program for 2+ years.