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Yes, my dear friends, Today again, I am still powerless over people, places, things and situations.
That beautiful eldest daughter. Let's call her AG. AG was arrested. She was already on probation, now a possible federal offense. We, her family, refused to bail her out. Her abusive boyfriend posted her bail. He has his issues & is not my favorite person, but I know him. I know his actions. I know his behaviors. He is one of us. He loves her. He tries to control her addictions, he hits her when she uses - (How many times did I imagine beating the living crap out of my AH when he was passed out in the middle of the floor???)
He & I, maybe we are not so different after all. He is making the best decisions he can with what he has?? - I don't know. I can't get into that.
What I can know is that more than likely this charge won't go away. Maybe this will be the path to get AG into another treatment program. Maybe this time it will help. I would love to say that if she goes to jail then maybe she would stay clean at least while she's pregnant, but in reality we all know there are drugs available in jail if you want them bad enough.
My f2f meeting was on "Love" last night. I love AG. But you know what, I love me, too. I love both of us enough to know I have to stay completely away from this situation and let the God of my understanding have complete control. For left to my own devices, who knows how screwed up this would be with me in charge??????
A month from today, I will be the Al-Anon speaker in Houston, TX sharing my recovery story at an AA Anniversary meeting. I'm thinking that probably there will be someone there who will need to hear some of this, right? That is my understanding, I experience things for a couple of reasons - one to heal me of past hurts & scars and another is to be able to share my e, s, and h to help someone else on their journey of recovery.
One day at a Time. First things First, Let Go & Let God & Easy Does it; I am clinging to those right now.
So, Just for Today, I am still grateful that I know I am Powerless over people, places, things and situations.
Peace to you, to yours & especially to all of our loved ones that still suffer - the A's and the untreated Al-Anons, Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
so sorry you are going through this. It is so heartbreaking to watch our children destroy their lives. Yes, maybe this will be the event that gets her back into recovery...I hope so!!
I'm sorry that AG is struggling so bad with her addiction. This just might be HP's way of breaking her down to her bottom. I will keep her in my prayers that she will wake up and get some long term help for she and her baby. Keep your positive spirit, I think you are right that our experiences do bless other people. Maybe one day your daughter will be able to share her e,s, and h with an AA group. Miracles do happen right? Take care of you, HP is taking care of AG.
Hugs, Twinmom~
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"The people who don't mind matter and the people who mind, don't matter". (Dr. Seuss)
Been there myself with my son. It is very difficult to sit back and do nothing. As parents we believe we need to protect our children but when they become so out of control we protect them best by letting things happen as they need to.
((((Rita))))) (((((AG)))))) I have said before, it is hard enough to be married to an A, but to have it happen to your child must be a parent's worst nightmare. Yes, I am sure there are a lot of people who are going to be able to relate to your story, and somehow draw strength from it. I liked what twinmom said, yes, miracles do and can happen. Love in Recovery, Becky1
I'm sorry this happened to your daughter. I can't imagine having a child that is addicted. It would break my heart. But you have demonstrated great experience, hope and strength in your posts. You give us all hope for our recovery. You have shown us how to handle things with grace and dignity while not sugar coating things. For that, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. It is always good to go back and remember Step 1. Keeps me on my toes.
Enjoy your trip to Houston. Many people will be very lucky to hear your voice. Perhaps when you get back, you could post your speech. I bet we would all benefit from it. Safe travels my friend.
Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
P.S. If a pink canopy bed shows up next Tuesday (Pipers' birthday) I'm sending it your way!
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