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..... it's been a few weeks since my last confession. LOL
- I have worried more than once a day that my life isn't all it should be. - I have pushed my will on others at least twice - I put my plans on hold in lieu of what my A wanted me to do instead only to be disappointed. - I voiced anger over anothers behavior (and the behavior was a given)
.... but, I went fishing with my kids. Did some much needed yard work and avoided making decissions based soley on the mood my my AW too.
Over a year of F2F meetings and almost 900 posts to this forum, and I am far from perfect, but much better than without. Today I have some hard choices to make, but I am glad that I feel healthy enough to plug through it.
Thank you all for being here, and hope you are having a great day!
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
brother, don't forget how much your service to others here (incl.-->cj) has helped make a lot of little corners of the world a better place. i KNOW in a lot of cases, speaking from experience, that we beat ourselves up a lot over making wrong or "other than the best" decisions. but hey, we take action. forgive thyself, therefore the ability to forgive others. for the lot of us, we are good people trying to get better, and a large portion of our discontent can come from our OWN drive. how many non-anons do you know with a program of spiritual betterment and enlightenment??? for me, i know a few, not many.
group hug!!!! we are good people, doing good things, to make life better - for us and others. i awarded myself with a $3.00 white chocolate latte, today. i am worth it.
rTX, keep plugging away at those decisions, and keep coming back. *waves to the other end of the same boat*
yours in recovery cj
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time to stop going to the hardware store to buy bread.
Nice to see your face again. I've missed you! You know what friend, if those are the worst of your "sins" then you are a saint! I can't tell you how many times I have slipped in my program. Good thing I have lots of padding back there! The beauty of this program is that we can start all over again any time we choose. Trust me when I tell you I have not applied my program to my work situation at all these past 24 hours. Is it any wonder that I have a migrane the size of Texas? But I'm in my jammies having some herbal tea, had a good dinner with hubby and a friend, and now I can relax. I'll try to remember my slogans tomorrow. I did somehow remember in the chaos to smile and laugh at some points along the way. We all do the best we can at any given moment. We're not perfect, but we are human.
Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
*in monotonic priestly voice* I absolve you of all sins my son.... Please continue on that daily 10th step. It'll help get you into a daily spiritual frame of mind, in addition to channeling some of those "toxic" feelings. Additionally, do you have an exercise program? A hobby that can be done at home or on a daily basis? Something that, regularly, you can do for yourself and by yourself will, ahem, *montonic prisetly voice* regularly absolve you of your sins... (((RTX))))
I guess sometimes, no matter how far we are in the journey of life we will stumble. Be thankful you have a special guardian angel watching over you. I am just realizing that I am on a journey, so I have quite a ways to go. YOu are special. Dont ever lose hope PEACE
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This is HippieTrippieChick Signing Off
Be blessed and have a wonderful day.
Remember God loves you.
PEACE
- I have worried more than once a day that my life isn't all it should be. - I have pushed my will on others at least twice - I put my plans on hold in lieu of what my A wanted me to do instead only to be disappointed. - I voiced anger over anothers behavior (and the behavior was a given)
and raise you . . . - thoughts of homicide (the victim of course is my AH) - "sharing" my opinion on how my daughters should raise their children - continually taking my will & my life back from my HP & trying to run it my way
and guess what - that's just since 5:30 this morning & it's only 8:12 am!!!!!! - Ok - not trying to discount your feelings just wanted to make you smile :) Glad you had a few moments to share with us. And Shall we both apply "Progress not Perfection"
Hope you have a great day & I promise not to murder my AH - Just for today (lol) - I'm kidding, I'm kidding -
Peace my friend, Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
You SCARED me LOL.... I thought you really fell off the wagon heheheh. I'm with Rita, I've already invisioned my A in flames -- Hp forgive me --gots ta work on them anger issues.
I'm so glad you are here. I love the "real" people on this board, we aren't perfect, just perfectly human.
One thing you mentioned that I can so relate to is when I feel there are decisions to be made my program automaticly gets stressed. Sometimes I don't want to wait for that answer as to what it is I'm suppose to do. (Kind of like "Hp, I'm tired of waiting, let me help you along" and Poof there goes my program out the window for anywhere from an afternoon, to a few days LOL)
I can't tell you how many times I have slipped in my program. Good thing I have lots of padding back there! 
The beauty of this program is that we can start all over again any time we choose. Trust me when I tell you I have not applied my program to my work situation at all these past 24 hours. Is it any wonder that I have a migrane the size of Texas? But I'm in my jammies having some herbal tea, had a good dinner with hubby and a friend, and now I can relax. I'll try to remember my slogans tomorrow. I did somehow remember in the chaos to smile and laugh at some points along the way. We all do the best we can at any given moment. We're not perfect, but we are human.
