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I just realized a few days ago, that I have no clue how truly negative of a person I am.
I'm sure I have a belief that humans are abusive, violent and critical and this shapes what happens to me. Even though I know about positive mental programming & I enjoy relationships, I am still more negative than I think I even want to admit. So for as painfully aware of everything I am, I can do for looking more closely at myself, replacing negative wording with more effective & positive phrases.
Besides, I know positive energy moves much faster than negativity. Not even sure why I chose to post this but I'm on record & miss & love my friends here. I hope everyone's doing well. This emotional journey/work doesn't seem to get easier with experience.
A minor update, since my mom tried to OD 10/3/07 ~ I've run the gamut of a deep depression... my mother took a trip with her b/f to the UK & they are doing better... since making it passed 1/14/06, my Anniversary (to my ex) has ruined my mom's b-day for me the last 6 years, I have new hope for the new year & expect it to be better than the last one!
-Kitty of Light ~ time for me to really try to lighten up, LG LG I'm just in the way
-- Edited by kitty at 16:13, 2007-01-20
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
(((kitty))) that takes a lot of courage - to look at yourself and see things that are there, that you don't want to see. i know there are things about me, when i look in the mirror, i tend to glance over some of my faults/defects of character. it has to be done, though, and you've inspired me to look deeper into myself, and see.
lots of love cj
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time to stop going to the hardware store to buy bread.
Hi there stranger. Keep plugging away at your program. It's what has kept me going all this time. My computer went down for a week, and eventhough all is wel, I never realized how much I missed this place. I was concerned about all of you. At the same time, I felt a bit out of sorts and not connected. This place has been such a lifesaver for all of us.
Love and blessings to you and your family. Kiss the kitties for me.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty <--- who also sends her love to the other kitties
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
Yup! I hear ya. I can get bogged down with negativity too,if I am not careful. Sometimes I can feel in a fog for days and never really find a reason why? It takes a lot to have a good,deep look at what's going on and even more to change our perceptions. I find myself sometimes feeling really "down" about something,and it takes all my efforts to try and see things in a different light and turn it around.I often find that when I do manage to turn it around........I can see it's my own distorted thinking got me there in the first place!!! Sheesh..........onward and upward eh?
SO good to see you again dear,sweet ((((Kitty))))
I don't have a reliable internet myself,so can't post as often as I used to. But keep myself in programme by daily readings and meditating. I was so pleased to see your name when I logged on.,as I often wondered where you were and how things were going for you. You helped me SO much during the dark days when my head was somewhere unhealthy.
It is great to have you back. Didn't realise that your Mum had been ill and you too have been doing it tough. It is very hard to remain positive when the people around you are giving off negative energy. It is as you know very emotionally draining. We have missed you heaps hope you are up to posting to us again and we are here to lift you up when you need it. ((())) Luv Leo x
(((((Kitty)))) I was just thinking of you today at work....how weird is that....that I come home and find a post by you.
I didn't realize your mom had been having troubles, hope she is better.
Miss you. Can you believe I have been here a year on Jan. 1, 2007? I will never forget your kindness to me. You kept ME from being negative back then. Remember?
Glad to see you. Hope things are going better for you too, dear Kitty. I am so much better, you would not believe it. Alanon has saved my life. Well, Alanon, HP, and my dear friends here, I should say.
Kitty! is soooo great to see you are back again! You were such wonderful inspiration to me when I first found **MIP** (I too have been gone... I left home and went to stay with my mother until her death in October. I miss her very much... but will see her again one day.)
While the AH decided to just drink more and more.... instead of what I'd hoped for. (That he'd realize how precious our life together was/is....) I came home to only be filled with more disappointment and dismay. Now, most of all I find I am becoming obsessed with wonder about "Life." About Living. About My Life. **Life, precious life. ** We have but one to live. Just One. This one. I, with the help of such wonderful people here...., my sponsor..., with the support from my inner program. believing in my "self..." I will be just fine. I know this. ((One Day at a Time)) Each Day is MY DAY. It's my life to decide what I want to do with it, how to live it, what is best for my very own "self." The *detachment seems to of set in... seems easier. I can still be loving and kind. But I dont have to bend over backwards to be sure he's happy. Not quite sure why..... but I feel so much more within my own being. I'm sure the being apart helped me some with that....
My LIFE. It’s only mine. No one else’s. I intend to live it the best way I can. Singing a song when I can.., looking' for and at the simple things of beauty, nature, and upward thinking mindfully so..... Each day.....reminds me how precious it is..... ODAT. I try to focus on deep breathing..... Making a point of putting on my gloves, going out to the barn....then giving the ol' punching bag a good workout....lol. Staying busy. Looking uP and letting HP take what I can’t control, didn’t cause and can’t cure. **** I hope to see you in chat! ****** Take care of YOU. Lots of love, lots of huggggggsssss!!!!!!((((((((Kitty of light))))))))))
kitty, You have always brought positive into my life :) Don't be so hard on yourself. I am so very sorry to hear about your mom! How devastating. Private message me here if you want to keep in touch. Hang in with your depression. This time of the year seems to be rough on people with depression. fluffy aka cdb :) xoxoxoxox
