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Needing to share a little this Sunday Morning.....yesterday, Chuck called about 8:30 am and asked me to come and follow him to take his truck to his dads and take him to detox. I thought about it for awhile and said, ok....so went.....it was a very hard thing to do but I was thinking, if he wanted to get sober...even just for a little while...that is a good thing....so he was sober, we talked for awhile....I stopped and got him breakfast and he said, can I come home after....I said, no Chuckie that part of our lifes are over now...you still have two beautiful kids who need thier dad.....I said, I do love you but the pain of this disease is just too much for me.....I just do want to do it anymore......
So I dropped him off at detox, he said, can you com in? I said, not I just can't gotta go...and that was that......I beleive I used the wonderful tools of Alanon.....along with compassion.....
I really hope he can make it for himself this time.......I don't see much hope in it....the good thing is I do see much hope for me....step by step, day by day, I am getting thru it......I really like my job, and the people there are so very nice....Of course, most of them are young so they are always asking me for help...lol.....I love it....my heart is not breaking as much anymore...don't get me wrong I have those days still....now, I am survivng them and getting stronger.
So my dear friends, I thank you so much for the wonderful responses to my posts. I am so grateful to be able to come here and just vent.....I am so thankful for all of you.....you have been a source of strength when I need it most.....
Love you too dear friend. My life is much richer for having you in it. You are a treasure and an inspiration. I hear the strength in your voice and know that you will be okay. Zach and Samantha are great kids, and their Mom is something special.
I hope and pray that Chuck will find his sobriety and recovery. As always I have your family close to my heart and in my prayers. Hubby offers his as well.
Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
P.S. Go Eagles!
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
I admire your strength, courage and serenity! You clearly "have what I want." My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. I really hope that your Chuckie gets sober and stays that way. This disease really is a taker.
The way in which you showed such compassion and love to him, without getting sucked into the insanity is nothing short of a miracle. All I can say is "wow."
Good for you Andrea , shows u have some understanding and comapssion for this disease and the man who fights it. good boundaries too , I am impressed . For his sake I hope he makes it this time like u said your children need him . Love Louise
Your getting a job inspired me a great deal. I have a part time temp job it is still not enough for me to get out on my own but its a baby step away. I have people who help me and understand me. I have this group. I have a lot lot more than when I started 9 months ago when I was suicidal. I feel the A had me down on the floor and was wiping it with me. Now I stand up on my own. I do not take care of him. This week I found out he got another speeding ticket. I made up my mind that I will not get into that with him. I will not mention it to him.
I came home this morning to see that he has been reading up on medical marjuana all night. He always has some excuse on something.
I am glad that you can remind your husband he has two children who need him. I hope this detox he will make it through. Maybe he will want sobriety now. My A wants nothing but to act out, make excuses, sit on a pity pot and blamed everyone.
