Life has been looking great for quite some time now. I won my SSI case on Oct 4th I just have to wait for my 3 year lump sum no idea how long that will be. Not really thinking about it either. My health is doing good. I changed to cymbalta on my antidepressants & it improved a whole lot of stuff. pain, headaches,& depressed thoughts etc. I lost some more weight. We went shopping for some new clearanced clothes. I have lost about 55 lbs since March '05. I am not on a diet just eating better food. My A has not bugged me even though she is still active. I have had to help her up when she fell within inches of the frog pond. It was a cold nite & I could not leave her upside down. but that did not bumm me out. I have not been back to my f2f Alanon group I am looking for another I found one just have not had a chance to go yet. It is lunch time too but on Tues. Looked like more people too. I am working on my problem with being told what to do & being what I percieve to be ( scolded in public). Work has been better. He doesn't bother me like he did though he is thinking he can still drive. So Monday We ( my A & I spent the day shopping & running errands.) then the 79 Chevy C-10 lost the transmission. We thought it was the modulator value. We could not find any tools." A friend" we no longer associate with stole all our tools over a year ago. We jsut never could replace the socket set, wrenches, & screwdrivers etc. We walked to a local gas station & asked a guy if he had a wrench. I thought he said no. We started to walk back to the truck. The guy asks what size? He has it. Tina walked to the truck in another parking lot & I rode over with the guy. He has out of state plates on his truck MS. I asked if Katrina got him too. He said yes. He had a new truck with three toolboxes on it. Tina changed the part while I made small talk. The guy goes to his truck & comes back with a tool box, Taskforce. He lays it down & says keep it I have 3 or 4 more. I was shocked. I said Thank You so very much. He said he had 2 more hours to drive. Blew us away. We ended up at a gas station we know the workers. We left the truck there when we realized we could not get home in reverse or 20 miles an hour. A neighbor came to get us. We called a tow truck the next day. We will get the tow money back from insurance. great. The transmission man says the transmission is shot. We decided the truck has too many problems to fix. We are looking for a newer truck. My Boss told me about one I am looking up in kelley blue book. Now I have to see if we can borrow the money till my lump sum comes in. So we are driving the Lincoln Towncar. We had someone stop us a few weeks ago and tell us how to fix the rear end for around $200. & where to go too.Life is still looking great. So Wed nite my A asked me to buy her wine at a local store out here in the stix. I get there and they closed early. I go to work the next day everything is ok. I talk to my boss some. I leave at 8:30pm I was going to pick up the wine even though I know better. I head to the store. I have a lead foot but I am still unclear what exactly happened. I was driving along. I touched the brakes while driving & I lost control I was swerving in both lanes. I could not control the car. I have NEVER ever had a wreck well not since I first started driving in 1982. I lived in ATLANTA I was used to driving in some crazy conditions. But this time, I was not in control. I am so grateful no one was coming or near me. I hit the side of the country road & started to spin & roll over. I am unclear what happened. I finally stopped. dirt everywhere. The roof is crushed on the passenger side, the windows are gone on that side , the windshield is really cracked & I am facing the opposite way in the ditch. I was able to get out. I was not hurt. I somehow knew I was going to be ok. Thank GOD/HP. I tried to flag someone anyone down no one would stop or slow down. I cranked the car wow. I thought well I will just drive home. I have only liablity insurance anyway & I did not need an ambulance. I got the car up on the road before I realized the tire was blown on the front. I got out and tried to flag down some more cars I decided to walk. Finally someone stopped & came back. I gave her my home phone number & asked her to call. She came back a few minutes later & said the machine picked up. So she gave me a ride back to my works home. I almost started to cry. I held it together. I still have not cried. I called Tina & she came with a neighbor they said the tire blew out is why I wrecked & I am lucky to be here. I had dirt everywhere, in my ears, hair, shoes etc. I don't have any cuts one tiny scratch on my leg. I have marks on my body where the seat belt got me. I am going to ER because I have had an enlarged spleen for some months now & I know trauma can make it rupture. I have a mark under my bra line I do not know what from & my belly looks big but I do not really hurt but just to be safe. I did call the hospital & they said to come in and get an ultrasound and checked out in general. My boss let me borrow her car so I can get to work today. Both of our transportations are gone now. I did not drive home. Tina did. I am sore. The police & state troopers were called out by someone who said someone was in the car. sheesh. They said it was not my fault but I was going to fast. one of the sheriffs deputy is a buddy of ours, when the state trooper asked if I wanted a report he hollared NO. They explained. I said no I do not need one. I did not get a ticket & insurance will not know about this accident. I can not afford it for sure. The tow truck man we know too. He said he will pay me salvage for my car & I will not have to pay for the tow. GOD & ALL THE ANGELS ARE WATCHING OVER ME OVERTIME.     I do not know what is going to happen next. We have no wheels and I am not really worried. It will all work out. Thank you god. I still do not know why I am here. This is possible the 2nd or ( I had 3 surgeries related to a ruptured appendicitis )4th time I could have died. But it is not my time. All my furrybottoms must have known they were all over me when I got home. Maybe it is to help all of them.?