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I was going to post how sad I was tonight, but I decided to read a few posts/responses first. I'm so glad I did , I must have picked two that were meant for me to read because I laughed so hard.
Today is my 14 wedding anniversary. Last night the A and I discussed divorcing again. His idea is that we can continue to do what we are doing "as long as you continue homeschooling the kids (ie, not work), and don't have anyone you're seeing, either staying at the house or YOU staying at their house." I flat out told him that was controling -- that I wasn't going to live with that fear. What rules does he live by??
Sometimes this disease just boggles the mind. I'm stepping out from under his thumb, facing my fears of "what if." I keep thinking "when remaining the same is more painful than the pain of change, change becomes easier." Things for me are changing.
Tonight though I'm still saddened about what could have been.
What I am noticing about you is that for every sadness you have, you also have a new awareness. I agree, you are changing and I can see your strength..awesome!!!
(((hugs))) Christy
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If we think that miracles are normal, we will expect them. And expecting a miracle is the surest way to get one.
When you figure this disease out PLEASE let me know... !! :) Mind boggling is an understatement.. !! I use to try to figure out my husband and why he did and said the things that he did .. NOW, i just shake my head !!
Keep getting stronger that is what we can do for US :)
You just keep on changing! I believe that nothing really stays the same. Every day things (everything) is a little better or a little worse. Maybe so little that you don't notice, but before long it becomes evident.
Maybe that is nieve, but my goal is to push for that little better every day. I may not make it, but I don't want to settle for a little worse.
You are doing so great... thanks for sharing your strength with us!
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
I hear strength and growth in your voice every time you post. Throughout the sadness and frustration you still hang on to your program. You still have hope for the future. Change is hard and scary, (as a Taurus I hate change) but it is so worth it. Like, rtexas, I prefer change to come in baby steps. My naiveness, I won't notice how big life changing events can be. But sometimes we have no choice. All we can do is hang on to our program and keep going foward. That's exactly what you are doing.
Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
, I must have picked two that were meant for me to read because I laughed so hard. 
