Why am I bothering? why am I trying to get Tina a ride home. She has been housesitting in Columbus since Wed. I got off work Wed at 6pm & took her up there around 8 to 9 pm. I then took our neighbor to the grocery store. I got home around 11pm. I had to get up around 4:30am Thursday & Friday to get to everyone doctored ( 3 need hot compresses, meds & 1 needs meds on nose) and fed before getting to work by 7am.

LOL There was a cow in the other lane as I was heading to work on Thursday. I turned around and put on my flashers. I got out and went to the house nearby at 6:30am woke them up & let them know they almost had 1 cow & 1 calf hit. I was wondering why I got done early and left early enough to be able to stop. WOW!

Friday was hell. I am doing 12 hours shifts. The old man thinks the boss lady is living with him. She spends the most of the nites there. I overheard the man tell his son that she had hidden his keys twice now & he wanted her out. He kept saying all day long. He was going to kick her out. He never says this to her face though.  He wanted his son to get a cashiers check so he could give the boss lady the check. He says she is going to say they are having an affair and she will want money to go away. My boss about fell on the floor rolling when I gold her.

I swear he is the biggest, bigot, predjudice racist sob ever. I said people like this will probably go to met their maker & find everthing they hate. A black homosexual women.

So all day friday he was cussing and fussing about having his truck keys. He was going to go buy some meat grill out. He doesn't like meat. go figure! He was going to buy paper plates, napkins, cups etc. No one comes to see him much anyway. I think he is thinking of yesteryear before he got the way he is. Who knows? I told him I had a migraine which I did so he left me alone most of the day. I just ignored his rude comments. His son has mentioned a nursing home. They will keep him sedated there.I am getting ready to go back in tonite 7pm to noon monday. I put in 56 hours this past week.

I tried to go to sleep around midnite to 1am. Weiner dog starts whining. I get up to see why? He wants in the chair. I go back to sleep. I get up again to them all barking. I come out of the bedroom again & step in a piss. lovely. They have pissed all over this house. This is not normal. I am special I guess. I let them outside at 2am. I put them up again and go back to sleep again. I was planning on waking up around 6:30am and leaving to do our saturday sale. I could not swap a crate out. the one I was trying to bring inside would not fit thru the door. I put it on the porch and got another crate. I had planned on taking a dog to town with me. I needed a crate for her. One that collapses. I got up around 8am. I got everyone done. I was locking up the house and my ankle twisted I fell on my left side. I hit the screen door, the metal crate, some ceramic statues & whatever else. My injury to my back is on my left side. I sat for a while I got up and changed clothes. I was stiff all over. but I was alive. The truck is leaking gas so I have been catching it in a pan & I needed to open the gas tank & put some more gas back inside. Well the locking gas cap decided not to open. We have been using a screw in a hole beside the lock to open it. Nothing was working. I was losing it. I called Tina like a half dozen times. No answer. Finally she answers. She has been sleeping or in the shower most the times I called her. What is sleeping late? Or sleeping in? I forget....

She finally says to break the lock. I said where is the key? oh I found that gas cap. I put a screwdriver in the lock & hammered it till the top came off. I have a piece of cap to keep water out now. So I go to get her. She is watching tv when I get there. I said oh what movie is this? Can I check it out from the library later? She says she is not really watching it. I had told her I would be there in one hour. It was around 1pm now. I laid down for a few minutes & went to sleep.

We finally set up around 3pm. great time to start a sale. We set up & she says I am going to PetSmart for a few minutes to see the animals and I will be right back. Well, I stood up with the donation container & took the cash of passing cars. I was pissed but I kept praying my HP would take away my anger and donations started. I saw Tina again Two hours later. She takes the dog I brought for a walk and to train her on the leash. I had no idea what all she was doing beside taking the dog to pee. I call the dogs name & Tina is all upset with me. I get this ugly attitude look. I got up & left said I will right back in a few minutes. She says better be longer. I stayed for sometime. It was getting dark when I got back now people were stopping to visit us. As we were loading up.We did about $106 total , I can't help think if we had been there earlier. I have found we make the most the middle of the month. I have said this but oh well.

I wrote her a two page letter while I was gone shopping. I found some flyer at a store and wrote on the other side. I told her that she is not a picnic to live with. She acts like everythign is all about her. and her alone. I know I make mistakes but I am owning up to the quicker than I used to. I know I am not easy to live with either. I said there are plenty of times I do not want to speak to her either but I pretend like nothing is wrong just to keep the peace. I can not talk to her without her getting her feeling hurt. I feel I am the only responsible one here. I am not here to make her happy or unhappy but to work on myself, etc............ I left it in her shoes for her to read later when I was gone. She has not been able to drink since last Wed. I do not honestly know or care when she did drink last.

We went to dinner & back to our friends house she is housesitting at. I hurt & was tired. I laid down for a nap and woke up in the middle of the nite. I stayed till dawn. I told her I had to get home she was like you were tired so I let you sleep.

So I have made some phone calls today on her behalf to get her a ride home. I work 7pm to noon next two days. A freind from our county is up in town today. I asked if she could give her a ride. I called Tina to get them together. I have no idea if or when she is going to be here. She needs to go to town while I work tommmorrow. two dogs to the vet, dog food, tire for lawn tractor etc. I know I have heard a hundred times that you can not depend on the alcoholic. she goes on about how a person should be responsible for their own actions.  

Reminded myself of something stupid. We were going to go do our sale. I said turn here. She is like no I will go on down to the corner. One the way home I got her to go the way I tried to get her to go earlier. I asked why she would not take it earlier. She got pissed and was not going to tell me. She is like no you know your way around and I don't you think you are smarter. I finally got her to tell me. She said that she took the way she knew to get to where we were going and she did not like short cuts. It would have cut the trip in half.  

I have to go get ready to go to work now. I have hidden $200 from myself. I saw it last weekend. I just do not know which safe place I put it in. I get off work at noon. I called work and the old man told the other lady he had hidden the truck keys in the truck. I am going to park in his way when I get there tonite. I will tell him I do not feel good which is not a lie. I see my Dr on the 20th. I have a bunch of bags and will say I can not find my keys when he asks me to move my car. What a stupid game! His son took him for a ride yesterday. His son asks him if he needs to go somewhere and he says no. maybe they do need to sell the truck out of sight, out of mind.  But he is not my father.  

Oh I stopped to get gas & found a credit card on the ground. I thought about turning it in to the store. Then I said no I would call the company later & tell them. They said they would call the card holder. The guy only had the card since this year. I have had my wallet stolen twice before. Boy I could have filled up my tank and a few others . Damn tank leaks. lol I could not do that it would not have been right.