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I have been going through my stuff all weekend and am part the way through the task of being ready. I think that is some of the issue being ready for what God has in store for me. I oftentimes am not ready. I have been overdue on decluttering and getting rid of stuff for more than a year now. I sometimes hope that if I don't do things that I won't HAVE to do them. The issue is I do. I have also started working on just turning it over when I have no control of the situation. Money is a huge huge issue for me right now. I am not making enough money. I do not have enough money. I need money to move to another phase of my life. When I review my life I know at certain critical times in it that things fell into place for me. I know if I keep up the effort that I will be able to make some headway. So I keep working on what I can, right now it is organizing my stuff and getting rid of things. I can't exist on having things I may need someday at this time. Maybe I will be able to at some point but not right now.
I have enormous faith that my life is going to get better. I know it has in 6 short months in al-anon and I know it will get better and better. There are times when it is such a hard hard slog to keep on going but I do.
Decluttering! Boy that is a great thing to do, to get and feel so much better. On the literal plane I was decluttering my house this weekend. Throwing out things that have no business being here! Old expired medicines, things left behind by my ex wife that after nearly two years now, she is obiviously not coming back for. And just all kinds of junk!
If felt soooo good! And reminded me in many ways of how I felt doing my 5th step recently...when I went to try and declutter me! Threw a lot of old useless junk out that day too. Both then and now, I felt so much lighter and almost...mmmmm...reborn!
Things WILL get better Mare. Keep working your program, keep slogging on through to the other side of the swamp! I bought a t-shirt with a phrase on it I just love last weekend......"Trudging the Road of Happy Destiny". I really like that!
Here's hoping for the best for you! I wish you peace and happiness in your future. Everyone needs that...happiness...love...serenity. You sound much stronger than when I first met you in chat. Hang in there and keep us posted ~
I can't say enough about how inspired I have been by your posts--I've followed your journey and have witnessed and been impressed by how much progress you've been reporting!
I love this post on decluttering because I think it works so well, too, as a metaphor for our lives. I have become a heavy duty believer in preparation--it's so easy to make rash decisions (been there, done that!) and I have since come to realize that the purpose of preparation is to get my heart-mind-spirit ready for action, so that when the time comes I can go/do without hesitation.
Maybe you can also.