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My bf called earlier to tell me he would not be home this weekend because of work. This makes me sad. I have come to enjoy the weekends with him here.
He also told me he got a better job opportunity but he would be traveling more. Right now he is gone 4-5 days a week but with this new venture he would be gone 4-6 weeks at a time.
When he asked me what I thought I told him that I didn't like the idea of him traveling more but I understand this is what he has been waiting for.
I don't want to stand in his way of his happiness or his dreams of a better job opportunity. And I am trying not to feel like he would rather spend time at work and on the road than at home with me but right now I do feel rejected and jealous. (Wow that sounded selfish!)
Maybe I should view this as HP trying to tell me I need some more alone time to work on me.
Thank you for being here and listening to me vent and thank you for any esh's shared.
Don't feel guilty because you are a little jealous. That's normal. Just remember that he must to what he thinks is best, and then you must decide to let him go. It will work out if it is meant to be.
Diva
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"Speak your truth quietly and clearly..." Desiderata
My husband has a job opportunity 2 hours away. He has to assess whether we move. If we do, I may not find a job. What about our housing? etc. He has to decide (with MY input) if our lives will be better there or here. That may be what he was asking you - how do you feel about his absence? I don't think it was selfish of you. You spoke up for yourself. ---Jill
