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Well I still have bronchitis but much better each day.
Sure zaps my strength. But am getting more done.
Anyway I have not heard from A. I was being tortured in my heart, not ready to let go.
But hp musta decided I had had enough becuz I am starting to let go again. I don't want to think of him at all. So I did what I tell ya I do, say stop. Well I noticed after doing that a day or two, I did not think of him much at all. Like my brain and heart heard stop enough, they gave up.
Now I sorta feel a block of haze or something if he comes in.
Yes I am a little depressed. It will get better. It is an addiction. I suppose it was like I had bad heroin for a looooooong time, not thinking I would ever taste the good stuff again, then I get some really good stuff for a month or so, then POOF! It is gone again. So now I am back to getting off it. And back to learning to get used to my life as it is, ok but with out the one I love that makes it exceptional.
I am glad your bronchitis is getting better. As I read your post I see that you are strong and that this is a process. Nobody ever really graduates, we just gain experience and tools that help us in our daily life.
That is such an important thought.
All my best wishes for you!
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
Sorry to hear you have been sick. I once got a really bad bout of bronchitis and ended up with asthma. It took me years to get over it. So please take care of yourself. I am glad you are detaching. I know just how difficult it is.
