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information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Life is like walking on water you just keep taking one step at a time!!! My journey to recovery is like wallking on water there are times when I am afraid and unsure of walking on water but I have my HP,sponsor,and tools to help me through thoses times of being unsure!!!
There are times walking on water in my journey that I need to make the decision to walk straight make a right turn or left turn but I have to keep in mind i can't stop or I will stink as I approach which way I should go I keep in mind easy does it. As i keep walking on water and make my decision to turn I keep in mind How important it is to have faith in HP who knows what direction I should go He will guilde me..
As I look out over the water i am walking on I see the shore a far off and wonder how long will it take me to get to the other side? I then look back and see where i have come from and it sure is a long way.... I look back to the shore of Hate, blame, fear, hopelessness, anger, denial, resentment, control, expections,and gossiup!!! I see that shore of defects and see the other shore as assest straight in front of me .. As I am walking away from the defects shore and walking on water towards the assest shore I see just How much I lived my life on my defects thinking that would bring me happiness but what it truly brought me was pain and suffering and as i walk away from pain I walk on water working my way towards assets with a more humble feeling...
I believe there are days that i do stop and stink to the bottom but i use the steps to help me back up to walk on water once again... As I see it when i stink it because I have gone back to my old defects thinking once again they'll bring me happiness only to once again have them bring me down to my knees in prayer asking forgiveness that I have once again did my own will and surcomed to my old defects thinking things had changed.....
The shore of asset is filled with peace,joy,happiness,serenity,love towardsGOD ,love towards Self,and love towards others, and forgiveness.
Being able to give back what i have recieved from others who have already walked on the water before me and now are living on the shore that I do look forward to living on!!!
To me this is what my journey of walking on water is like for me!!!!!
