I wanted to share something that was wonderful that I did for myself last night. When I started the program I had lost all interest I had in music. I had just walked away from it all. Gradually in time my love for music has returned again. When I joined the program I had given up everything I had enjoyed because everything lost its appeal to me. I figured my life was in chaos so I didn't deserve to have fun I didn't deserve to enjoy life. So one of the things I am working on is finding out what I enjoy both old and new. Some of my co-workers at my job had been inviting me out for sometime and I hadn't gone. Last night for the first time in many months I felt like singing.  So I did we went to this little bar and grill, I had been to a few times in the past and I sang. It was wonderful what a nice release for me. I had such a good time. I ran into some friends of mine from many years past. They were so glad I got out and they got on to me for staying couped up for so long. It is always nice to hear how much people miss you when they don't get to see you. I finally feel like I am learning how to have fun again. It is a wonderful feeling.

Btw you know when you need a night out when you child is pushing you out the door and telling you to have fun and doesn't matter what time you come home. (he he) In the back of my mind I was wondering what he was up too, right about that time he said don't worry mom the party will be over and the kids will be gone by the time you get home.(LOL) My life is far from perfect but I will take a life time of more moments like last night when I can get them it is enough for me.