hi everyone. after some deep talks ive had on here ive figured so much out and really feel good. thank you. i had a one and one talk with my friend, then my a, then my mom. i let it all out how what i choose is my choice and for them to let go of me and allow me to do what i want without trying to influence me. i told my a that i had to talk to those who are worrying and i needed time to think. i feel so much lighter. the past while i havnt been praying or reading the bible like i used to. sometimes i think hp sends us a bump in the road to get us back on track. sure enough i picked up that bible and already feel so wonderful. my faith that he is taking care of me is what keeps me going. keeps me sane and happy. i know im going to be fine no matter what. i know there will be so many hard times. hp will take care of it all.