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I wish to share with you all some very happy news.
My divorce is final 6/30.
How can this be happy news? If you told me 2 years ago I would be happily divorced I would have screamed in rage, no way.
But, God has other plans for me than to be the victem of abuse, scorn, ridicule and all the other unacceptable behaviours dealt on me by my active, unrecovered husband.
Plans to be a better friend, sister, Aunt and child of God than I could ever be when my life was spent obsessed with a sick man who would not seek recovery and tossed my emotions and feelings to the wind while he chased his fix. My fix was obsessing about him.
Until, by the grace of God I found Miracles in Progress and alanon.
When I had no car to get to meetings, no energy to fight the plight of my life, when I was confused and lost in the wilderness, my family here made me a place at the table, listened to me and reflected back my pain, shone the light down the path of knowledge.
I am forever grateful to each and every one of you for your help, friendship and the fellowship that I have found here and in my face to face community
With thanks, tears and love
megan
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Megan
If you want things you never had you need to do things you have never done
I am so happy for you! And so proud of you too. You have been such a wonderful inspiration to so many, sharing your journey of recovery with us. It has been amazing to watch you grow from the person I first saw in the chat room (how long ago was that? can it be? )
I know the day my divorce was final was somewhat bittersweet, but more sweet than bitter! Because I knew, it was just another milestone in the new direction my life is taking.
With the help of Al-anon and my HP, I have so much hope and certainty...the future will be wonderful. I know yours will be too my friend!
A year ago you were the first person who welcomed me here. On that lonely, scared, confused day I never thought recovery was possible. But you assured me it was.
You are indeed an inspiration to all. I am glad that you have found the serenity, peace, and joy of living that you so richly deserve. We all deserve the life we want. We all deserve to be happy and healthy. We are entitled to that. Thank you for showing us how to do it.
Thank you for being the sweet loving friend. I have loved watching you grow stronger emotionally and physically. You always brighten my day. Pipers Kitty and I are so proud of you! You are THE EXAMPLE OF LIVING STRONG! If life is a bike race, you have finished at the top of the mountain! Sometimes you've had your team around you pulling you up the hill. Sometimes you've been left all alone at climbing that hill because we couldn't be there for you, and it was up to you to dig deep and keep pedaling. Sometimes it's all about the team working together for a common goal: your recovery. Sometimes it's the individual "time trial" where it's just you and the bike and how you finish. Guess what, you get the yellow jersey my friend, only made out daisies, roses, and sunflowers! Here's to you!
Love, blessings and happy life my friend!
Live strong,
Karilynn, Pipers Kitty, and hubby (he sends his love and congrats too!)
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
You sound like you are in a good place for YOU Megan.... Congratulations, and I know you're looking forward to "life after 6/30".
I struggled for a long time about whether or not to divorce, and finally did it.... My life is far from perfect now, but overall, I think I am more at peace. My ex is now over four years sober, but still carries many grudges against me.... I can no longer take responsibility for that anger and hostility, and that feat is a LOT simpler now that we are not together.
Take care
Tom
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"He is either gonna drink, or he won't.... what are YOU gonna do?"
"What you think of me is none of my business"
"If you knew the answer to what you are worrying about, would it REALLY change anything?"
Now you can -as karilynn says have it your way now
I have said once mine was final –that very day, I felt the clouds disappear and the sun emerged shining so brightly. Honestly as if a heavy weight was lifted
You wrote that with tears in your eyes and I read it with tears in mine. You see, a year ago as I was laying the ground work to get out of my marriage you had just done it. You were my hero and my ESH. Since then as you know I've left my a husband and have been on my own for over 8 months. As I dread the spousal support hearing on Wednesday I see how well worth this step towards freedom will be. Again, you are my inspiration to keep on my weary road. Thank you for all your words have meant to many of us here and of course congratulations!!!!!!!!!
What a long painful journey this has been for you!
I hope that you are feeling a sense of relief that the worse is over!
You have handled yourself with such great dignity during this whole ordeal! Really, you can hold your head up. Divorce is the second most stressful thing that can happen to a person, and that is when it is civil. Yours was very difficult and contested...
They say that how a person behaves in adversity is a true test of character. Well my friend, you have truly shown yourself and your friends what strength of character you have, and what a decent, kind, and wonderful human being you really are.
You have really worked this program and utilized the tools so now you are reaping the benefits. You are well on your way to a happier and healtheir life. You deserve to be happy Megan! Don't ever doubt that. Good things come to good people, and I will pray that that happens for you often and soon...and for the rest of your life.
I am so grateful you came to MIP so I could meet such a wonderful true friend as you have been to me!
Only someone who has been through a painful and contested divorce can relate to how it feels to be finally over. On one hand you feel like celebrating..you SURVIVED...but on the other hand there is a sadness...here are more prayers that the sadness does not linger long and fades quickly and completely.
A happy and healthy life is waiting for you Megan...and is well deserved.
Many many prayers and best wishes for your current and future health and happiness...
Megan, I am happy for you. Yes, I agree; I would not have believed either that I would be happily divorced. But I am. The twists and turns of life bring about events that require decisions from us, and your decision, as mine, was based on sound judgment. I send you every good wish for now and in the future. You are a really remarkable woman; one whom I am proud to call my "friend."
Much love, Diva
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"Speak your truth quietly and clearly..." Desiderata
I resemble the description, a friend old and new; i'm old by teenager's standards, but new here. I have seen you share. Your strength and compassion are obvious. I read today this paragraph from spiritual literature:
"It takes a lot of spiritual courage to love yourself in the midst of self-doubts and perhaps guilt feelings, questioning your loyalty to person, place or circumstance. When the feeling of love, joy and freedom of contribution is no longer available, then you have to move beyond the commitment by honoring your heart's desire. You are free to release yourself from that commitment and pursue that which is in harmony with the heart's well-being."
I celebrate your relief of setting your heart free. It hasn't come easily but the freedom you achieve is more than just for now, you have freed youself from the patterns that allowed you to enter a situation that brought you such pain; and more than just for you , for you have helped others who love you, who wish for that which is in your best interest, and hope to find the same spiritual courage you have shown.
Good luck sweet Megan, and thank you for being you.
(( Megan )) Wow, seems like it was a long time coming... (I forget what state you're in) I know in PA where my ex filed, it sits on a desk for a year, waiting in que, just in case you reconcile.
I always love the realization that when you are experiencing an end of something & come to the perception that it is the beginning of some new & wonderful changes in your life.
I felt liberated & free, even though I still had the weight of such an ugly experience & much to work through, I felt so much lighter & clearer. Six years later, I've dated a little but know that I have many old patterns to break so I don't attract a void within myself, I want to be whole & have a relationship based on growth.
You too have helped me a lot, most especially last year when I was struggling & so very angry, thank you for your support & strength & wish you a Blessed life, full of being able to see yourself clearly & beautifully.
Love, -K o L
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
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Because I knew, it was just another milestone in the new direction my life is taking. 
You are THE EXAMPLE OF LIVING STRONG! If life is a bike race, you have finished at the top of the mountain! Sometimes you've had your team around you pulling you up the hill. Sometimes you've been left all alone at climbing that hill because we couldn't be there for you, and it was up to you to dig deep and keep pedaling. Sometimes it's all about the team working together for a common goal: your recovery. Sometimes it's the individual "time trial" where it's just you and the bike and how you finish. Guess what, you get the yellow jersey my friend, only made out daisies, roses, and sunflowers! 
Here's to you! 
