Nancy,            Friday 4:55 *AM*

             I don't post very often to the message board, but I've been up all night on this computer and got to reading everyone else's posts. I just want you to know I am also a mom to a soldier who is over in Iraq right now. I am married to an "A" ( my 2nd husband), and it's so hard dealing with the drinking husband and a son in the middle of a war!! This man is not my son's biological father, and I am working on getting a divorce. I have the papers and money to do it, I just don't have the courage to tell him yet. My son will hopefully be home in September. This is his 2nd time over there, and his wife just told me this past Sunday he's been having nightmares since the 1st time!! I am devestated!! I hate it that I can't help his wife and baby daughter out the way I'd like to and they are stationed down in North Carolina...and I'm here in Kentucky. My "A" just doesn't have a clue about how I feel and why I'm so depressed and he has no idea that I belong to this group. He passes out at 10pm and I stay up on this thing all night. I have no use for a man that can't give me the emotional support that I need right now. I will keep your son in my prayers and if there's anything I can do like send him a card or some thing...please don't hesitate to let me know!! I belong to an Air Force parent support group, and we are always doing things for one another like that. ok? I just found out my son will be on a convoy towards Baghdad soon...if he hasn't already gone. Sometimes I think if I drank as much as my husband does, it wouldn't hurt so much and I wouldn't worry the way I do. But my son deserves better than that!! It makes me soooooooooo mad that my "A" can sit on his butt and gripe about all that's going on in this world, and I have a 21 year old that is more of a man than he ever thought about being!!! And he isn't carrying a beer can around all day long and sucking down shots of whiskey to make him feel ten feet tall and bullet proof! Well...I've got to go for now, it's time for my "A" to get up and get ready to go to the doctor's to get his pain pill prescriptions in a couple of hours. If he only knew the pain I felt right now...and there isn't a pill in the world to ease it...And my "A" thinks he's got it soooooo bad because he can't work, and he's got the nerve to sit and watch CNN and bitch about how much the government is screwing him!!! When my son and your son and thousand's of other soldiers aren't even getting a roof over their head and soft bed to sleep in at night, and eating meals out of a bag they have to heat with water!! I'm sorry...I'm getting mad just thinking about how much my "A" doesn't appreciate what our men/women are over there fighting for!! I hope you'll reply back and let me do something for your son! Take care. God Bless. What branch of service is your son in? I pray it won't be long and he'll be back home soon again!! That goes for ALL of them!!  Hugs,                                                                                                                    Korinne                                                                                                                  Proud AF Mom of                                                                                                     John C.W. III                                                                                                           Security Forces ( Somewhere in Iraq )