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I have been in alanon about 3 years now.I went though a period where I was working on some areas in my life and wasnt going to many meetings . Now I am ready to get back in and have done some meetings on line and have posted here.
My dilema is that my ex a and his new gf he met at AA now I hear go to all the meetings I went to and tonight she is going to be a speaker at a meeting I got invited to .I cant go I dont know how they would react towards me.
I also am glad she is in recovery and dont want her upset why she speaks.It is not just seeing them together which is true but it is our background of abuse in all ways .
Now I see I am isolating which I do so well.Should i just keep my meetings on line and post here it does help so much and worry later about face to face meetings ..Texas is a big place and I guess I could drive way across town but i just really dont want to go to a area i dont know at night
This is just my opinion, I think you should do whatever it is you feel you do to do for your own recovery. If you went to those meetings before and feel the need to return to f2f to get out of your own isolation then i suggest thats what you do. As for thier reaction to seeing you well that isnt your problem as long as you dont do anything that would cause harm. You can also choose not to approach them and not engage in any conflict. Meetings are for everyone's recovery and this is your recovery not thiers. If you feel you can go and get a meeting out of it then why not. I say dont allow anyone to take your recovery from you.
If your presence is a problem for her. Thats her own stuff not yours. If you feel comfortable going and are able to listen to her speak without stress to yourself. ITs not your problem how any one else feels. WE do what we need to recover for ourselves. Hope this helps if not take what ya like Hope it works out for you.
Glad you are trying to come out of isolation
kerry
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Hi, I just know for me, real live faces to Share with keep me from isolating! A computer gets a lot of junk out, but real people keep us connected to life and living. Without sharing 'faces', I would just be a near hermit. Just me.
I did go to face to face meeting today and it was like ole times and my close friends were there.I decided for my recovery I will go tonight I wont go with expectations or fear.I cant run from them my rest of my life and it is my recovery.
If she speaks I will be glad of her recovery and if feel led to will say sometying if not I will be quiet but what ever I do it will for my health .
I will not let them dictate how I do it.The funny thing is they probably dont know or even care if I come .As we learn in alanon it is about me , not them.
I will let you know how it goes.I havent really seen my ex since I left 3 years except in a car passing or something.
Hope it works out for you. 