The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Just for this morning, I am going to smile when I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying. Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear, and smile and say how perfect it is. Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry, and pick you up and take you to the park to play. Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together. Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles.. Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by. Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned. Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you trying to fix them. Just for this afternoon, I will take us to McDonald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.. ! Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born and how much I love you. Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry. Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars. Just for this evening, I will snuggle beside you for hours, and miss my favorite TV shows. Just for this evening when I run my finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given. I will think about the mothers and fathers who are searching for their missing children, the mothers and fathers who are visiting their children's graves instead of their bedrooms, and mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms watching their children suffer senselessly, and screaming inside that they can't handle it anymore. And when I kiss you good night I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer. It is then, that I will thank God for you, and ask him for nothing, except one more day.............
Thought you might like this one
kerry
-- Edited by kerry5 at 09:34, 2006-06-13
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Life can only be understood backwards, But it must be lived forwards
Got me all teary eyed and thanking my HP for all the blessings I have in my life as well this morning. You see I really relate to this and have been really trying to do this for the last week or so because we just layed to rest our 18 year old friend who had leukymia on Satuday.
It is so heart wrenching to see our friends lose their son, but he was in such pain with no real hope for recovery. I believe he is now able to finally smile and watch over us.
Thank you for sharing this.
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
My rollercoaster with my A made me so much more tense with my kids...he is gone, and I have seen a HUGE difference in how I feel about them, every day I am more comfortable being single mom again, dealing with the stress and bills and worry and feeling of lonliness. Like this said, I am with my living healthy children, not visiting their graves or sitting beside their hospital bed watching them suffer....CANNOT imagine.
I am so thankful that I read this and so thankful to you for posting it.
((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))) Gald you guys liked it. I have lost focus also with my children and have been a little stressed lately, with them. This reminded me to pick up focus and i wanted to share it with all of you. So glad you liked it. it came in my email when i needed to hear it
kerry
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Life can only be understood backwards, But it must be lived forwards
Such a beautiful, touching, meant for the box or wall one. If its yours you should have it printed and laminated and pass them out. Would be a great lifesaver for many to have visible somewhere close. Its very lovely.
I had alot of A's in my family, only daughter included. If I can get it printed I will give her a copy for my 2 grankids I don't hardly see and will be moving away from soon. In alot of ways its hard for me to read because of the grief I have about not being able to be close to mine. Its so lovely and reminds me and the hurt returns again. I wish I had them to do this with again.
I wish my mother would of had it when we were young and my brother passed on at 13 with leukemia and the 2nd youngest I buried in 97'. When alot of trauma is around , kids can get the brunt of things and get forgotten so easily. I remember what it was like when my mom couldn't handle it and the rest of us lost out on all the affections. Sometimes its still hard to see others being so loving with theirs. I miss it so.
Thanks for posting such a nice piece.
BLESSINGS,PEACE,SERENITY
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I tell myself when times are rough, "this to shall pass!!!" Ask HP for guidance, if the door is open, and I know how to look, I will become aware! I also visit http://www.inspiringthots.net/ . Blessings , Your sister in Recovery
Omg Kerry, that was absolutely beautiful, every parent should feel that way, we are lucky to have our kids and not take them for granted, i know when i'm upset i look at my girls and smile, so happy to have them, i feel very fortunate to be a mom, many people can't have kids or they died or are really sick ,my kids are my life and they keep me going, keep me from losing my sanity lol.....thanks for sharing........kleenex please........
After standing at the grave of my own child many times, I learned the importance of each day with my remaining kids. I've often wanted to tell the parent that I see screaming and jerking at a toddler that it could all be gone tomorrow. Sometimes, I have. I seem to notice angry parents a lot. Maybe I'll print that off and carry a couple with me in my purse for hand out It might get me in trouble, but then again..it might change a life.
Christy
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