Hi all. Hope this finds everyone well. Plodding along here with kids and life. Kids are so much bigger since I first landed here and are doing great. They have almost nothing to do with their A parent anymore and are so much the better for the stability and peace in our home. Life is good. I did finally manage to kick the smoking habit after several prior attempts over the last decade and have been single the same amount of time so about 15 months now. I am also now around 30 pounds heavier and there are moments where I freak out and think maybe I should start smoking again. But even 30 pounds lighter I still found something stupid to criticize about my appearance so nope. There are no short cuts. I will start walking again. The intellectually handicapped child is now 16. He's honestly getting so hard to manage. If there were the option of residential care I'd take it. There's unfortunately no respite services where I am and I think that's part of the difficulty too. It is very isolating being a caregiver. Anyways just a quick update this end. Hope all are well. Xx