To be fair, I spent a lot of time around alcoholic brains. That might explain why this has arisen; nothing more than familiar contempt. I recall hearing stories about having a devil of a time around child support and ex-alcoholic husbands. Now going through it I need a place to be honest with myself. Is it really about the money ? This particular week, yes it is practically but overarchingly it's that awful desire to extract accountability out of a person whose lack of accountability caused me a lot of distress, hurt and stress. He insists on rewriting history. I resist this. But I'm forgetting it doesn't matter. Why should I care about his bullshit if i no longer have to live with it? I will not pick up the rope and skip back to crazy town. I will not.