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I really did not feel like posting this but isn't that the time I usually need to post the most?
I moved out of my house 2 weeks ago. In that time I stopped by a few times, once I was supposed to stay the night for a doc appointment the next day but while I was there the police showed up. Because he had not checked into work for 5 days they had sent them in order to make sure he wasn't dead. Stopped by today to clean the cat litter and I see someone broke in the front door, my husband had said that he had locked his keys in the house and had to break in. The door frame is shot .... another thing to fix before we can sell it oh hurray. We had an agreement on his giving me money for bills every two weeks, since he quit his job I was not sure how that works. Now I know ... Thur he will call and say what time will you be at work tomorrow ... Fri will come and he will call and say oh I thought they would have mailed my check since I quit my job can you wait til tomorrow ... oh by the way I lost my a## at the casino last night, Sat will go by without hearing from him at all.
I decided that I needed to call his mother just to let her know I am sorry this is turning out this way. I left a message, so far she has not returned my call.
I left signed divorce papers for him to sign 10 days ago, he was supposed to return them with his bill check this week. He even said Don't worry I won't procrastinate, I can't take you not being a forgiving person and accepting my going out a couple times a month. LOL I would accept that but it turns into 5K in debt and months of using each time UUUURRRGGG Anyway I decided that on Monday I will go to an attorney and do it right, I did the hard part already I asked family for money to get it started.
The really sad part is the thing I keep bursting into tears over ... he said I am the reason he uses. I know the 3 C's. I know my A. I know the truth but this still hurts me more than anything else. I must be insane.
Don't listen to him! My AH said I was the reason he drank. 2 years divorced and he still drinks! I was the reason he was unhappy...he is still unhappy. Keep up the good work and do not let him have any more of your emotions! He does not deserve them! Tears are liquid prayers. They are messy but better messy on the outside than messy on the inside! Cry it out!
Jennifer: I am sorry this is so hard. It seems like you are very centered and know what you are doing. I think they make it hard as possible to leave in order to guilt trip. They are very good at that.
I am glad that you are leaving for you and know it will not be easy.
Isnt it funny we are all the reason they drink.. Lets face it we are at fault for it all .. I use to think it was true, now i laugh ... inward ..!! How silly they sound... blablablabla !!
Good for you !! Stay focused, keep working on YOU !!
