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Last night, I wanted to do something for me. So I got home from my second job and took a bath. And went into my room grabbed my "Courage to Change" book. I have had something weighing on me alot lately something I have been letting my own feelings getting in the way of instead of letting my hp have it. I have had some anger feelings for a few months now. So last night I had to make a choice. To let it consume me and be like I was before, I started the program or "let it go and let god". I then read in my book at the bottom of pg 178. "Forgiving is not forgetting it is letting go of the hurt". So that is what I am going to do. I could have easily handled things differently but I know that if I handle them the way my anger and hurt wants to it would only be because of those reasons. I too have made mistakes in my life. It is much harder to forgive then to just keep things going. So I choose to do things the hard way. I choose to let it go and work on me. I have walked away from everyone, I have known especially my friends, because I have let this get to me and didn't want them hurt. But the real problem was it was me. I didn't know who I was I became a shell of a person with nothing but pain and hurt. I lost all of who I was inside. But now I know, I have made it threw this a little battered but not broken. So today I look at life for the first time in a long time. With no fear, no anger, a new beginning and a fresh start.
One Day at a Time
Angeleyes
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I believe in my HP to show me the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dear angel, What a courageous choice you have made. Thank you so much for your post. It is an inspiration to my day, and a real Program post. Blessings, mebjk
Thanks for your post. But all my things that way heavy on my heart I am learning to turn over to my HP. Things I want to put my will in and know my will is not the best choice. I do believe if it is meant to be it will be my hp will work it out with my A's hp or not. I am not going to try and control anything that was the "old me". So starting out in my "new me". I took a phone call from a friend last night. She has been wondering where I have been. So tonight is my first night out in many months. Time for me to start living my life for me and leaving the rest of it in my HP's hands. I have forgotten how nice it was to talk to my friends. That other then al-anon I have people that care for me and miss me. Thanks for all your support. I am going to stay on this message board and go to f2f's. That is how my hp has directed me. For now they are the only places that I feel I get the support I need for my recovery. Thanks for everyones love and support.
Letting GO and letting GOD
Angeleyes
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I believe in my HP to show me the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
