The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
In today's reading, the author shares that many Al-Anon members lost touch with their feelings as a result of living in the contradictory and explosive world of alcoholism. Many Al-Anon members lose touch with themselves as well. Recovery does not mean becoming a different person; for many of us. it means a return to being ourselves.
Today's Reminder: There is an innocence within me that already knows how to trust my Higher Power, to cherish life while holding it lightly, to live fully and simply in the present moment. I will allow that part of myself to come forward and nourish me as I continue this journey.
Today's Quote: "It takes a long time to become young." Pablo Picasso
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Today's reading really mirrors my own experience in Al-Anon. I was returning to the person I was before my marriage with an active alcoholic. I am still on this journey of rediscovering myself, especially since I've elected to stay in my marriage. I'm also learning to allow myself to become someone new, or respond differently to situations because something else feels more "me".
I hope you make today a great day!
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Skorpi
If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. - Lao Tzu
Skorpi thanks so much for your service and above ESH. When my A started drinking heavily I completely lost myself. Over time with our program I've gotten myself back, stronger and better thanks to alanon. My son has pulled away from my A, and I live near him half the week. I know it's unusual and my spouse hates it, but it is wonderful for me. I devote time to the marriage and now have a life with my son and his family. Works for me. Grateful member.
Thank you Skorpi for your service/ESH and all the shares. One of the most difficult things I had to admit/accept was that my self- worth was zero by the time I got to Al-Anon. The process of recovery has brought back to life the dignity, self respect, and confidence , core values I once possessed. Instead of debating whether I should stay or leave any situation, I ask if the person (s) or situations are worthy of me. Focusing on internal growth led me to choose staying in my marriage. Thanks to the wisdom of MIP, Al-Anon process and a loving HP, I am slowly building a life that is ...worthy :)
Thank you, Skorpi. I feel like recovery is ALL about rediscovering oneself! The part of you that doesn't tolerate abuse. Shocking to me how far that part of me got pushed down. All in the name of denying step one: that my life had become unmanageable. To admit that your spouse is no longer treating themselves or you in a way that anyone deserves to be treated is too much somehow, and then I just squashed it down. Made excuses. Accommodations. Enabled. I'm so glad that I was able to find that part of me that believes I deserve better!
