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today has already started off extremly crazy. while actually i tell my story about last night first. i got a horrible migraine last night and i was given a new prescription to try out from my doc, for when i get migraines. so i took it like i was supposed to. it got rid of the migraine within half an hour but........my heart started racing, my blood pressure shot up, my legs and arms were going numb, i was nauseas,,,ahhh everything you can think of. so i speant the night at the er. everything is fine and im healthy they said i had a reaction to the meds and to not take them again. i was so scared i thought i was having a heart attack and im only 23!!! im feeling better, just tired and nauseated today. and now the excitement with my beloved a...........
so this morning he gets up and instantly starts pushing those buttons he knows so well. i did one stupid thing and mentioned he should go to a meeting with this guy he met in the treatment program that keeps calling here. my a flipped out and told me to leave him alone. then i remembered....get out of his face. so i did. but he sure didnt get out of mine. he just kept harassing me. i told him i wont participate in this, so keep going if you want, you'll see what will happen with that attitude. im getting so pushed where today i just dont care. last night he couldnt stop telling me how much he loves me and today he wakes up being that a$$ of a person again. so he started getting ready to go somewhere. in the past i would ask 20 questions, where are you going this and that. not this time, i just said bye, see you later. sure enough a few minutes later he comes back through the door, saying give me my bank card (he gets his unemployment tomorrow) he owes me money so i said no way. he called me every name in the book and left. right now, i really dont care. he can act the way he wants and im going to continue on with my day. if he goes and picks up that drink...go ahead i say. his choice. AND I DONT HAVE TO PARTICIPATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Oh that must have been so scary for you last night!!! I am glad you are feeling better--I'm sure you can't wait to get rid of the nausea!!
Why do a's like to argue so much??? Good for you in not participating. You did a great job of holding back and letting him go. I know that you are aggravated and tired--espeically after a night at the er--who can get rest there??!!!! Take it easy with yourself today. I hope all goes well and if your a does his thing I hope you can detach and do what you need to do!
I'm glad you are o.k. I hate the ER especially when its me not feeling well. I hope you get some rest today. My A and your A need to get together and compare notes. They both sound like they have that Dr. Jekel Mr. Hyde thing going on. I also get very confused by his loving statments one minute and his badgering and berating statements the next. This usually ensues after I have tried to enforce some boundary of mine that he just doesn't feel like respecting at that moment. Good for you for sticking to your boundaries and not letting him rattle you too much. I hope you get some peace from him this evening.
Hugs,
Twinmom~
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"The people who don't mind matter and the people who mind, don't matter". (Dr. Seuss)
(((((((((((((notsonew)))))))))))) I am so sorry to hear you had to go to the er i am glad you are ok and nothing serious was wrong!!!! Prayers for healing!!!!
Way to go by keeping your boundaries and for not reacting to your A... Way to work your program keep it up!!!
Glad your ok. Nothing like the cure that kills you. In reading your post it is easy to say that your A's ranting and raving is not about you but the disease. When you are right in it is hard not to take it personally. Take care of yourself.
