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Post Info TOPIC: Visiting the Power Of the Serenity Prayer again.


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Visiting the Power Of the Serenity Prayer again.


Thank You Paul for your sharing, I always look at God's Timing, and it is once again "spot on" for me. As I was only thinking to myself the other day, after I was talking to my God, with my Prayer List,[ which is becoming longer and longer], especially the my Family members, and the other people who I care about, also the other prayers the I say each Morning, am I just repeating them over and over, and not really taking them on board and applying them. As that is the way I feel sometimes. But I know that feelings are not facts.

So afterwards, I had a look at myself and how I am going through my life, and with issues that are concerning me. For me I need to see some changes, and how much Serenity that I do have. I have one ongoing concern today, with one of my Daughters, that is struggling with Brain Cancer. The painful part for me is that I have been shut out of her life, and am not allowed to know anything. When I found out about it, I did send her a note to say that I was here for her, and that I loved her. Also to my son, who has also shut me out of his life, but I know he is watching his sister go through this.

That for me, is where the Serenity Prayer comes into my life, for I know that there is nothing I can change with the situation. I have let go and Let God, and I know that I have let go by the degree of Peace that I do have. Yes, I do have my bad days, and moments, of the what if's, etc, as I love them both, and want to be a Mother, and hold their hands and give them hugs, but I can't. Yes, it does feel strange, not being/ feeling as if I am going to lose it, and be an emotional mess, as if I am not being "Normal". But I can't have it both ways, Praying and Trusting, Letting Go, and then taking it all back. I am truly living One Day At A Time.

So on the weekends, when I talk to my God, I hand over my Prayer list to Him, so I can have a rest, also, when I feel that I am starting to Carry and Care at the same time. I do know God is in my life, and that the Program works, and that I doing okay.

Love WendyP.



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Hi Tired tonight, thank you for your lovely words, and for your sending positive thoughts for my Family. What has helped me through this is, all the work and knowledge that I have gotten over the many years that I have been working my program. I can totally understand the dynamics of the Family Affected by Alcoholism, not that I like it as I don't. As I can/have seen the damage it has done to all of us.

I read once that after understanding, comes forgiveness,so that has helped me greatly as well. When I understood about Adult Children of Alcoholics, I understood and could have compassion for my Adult Children. Not that it was easy as it wasn't, as they saw me as the bad guy, and still do.  I feel sad about that, as they can't accept me for who I have become.  When my will comes to play and I 'Want' to do things, I remember, who and what I am dealing with, so I pull my head in and give the situation to God, and get out of the road. I know that I am in for the long road with my Daughter and Son, but I know that I am not alone, and after listening to others in recovery, I know that I am not the only one who is walking this path. It is very common, not that I like to hear about others journey's, I don't wish it on any one, as I know how painful it is, but it helps me when it hurts.

So, once again, Thank you for your lovely words.

Love WendyP.



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