The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I buried a memory from when I was 12 years old. I saw my brother hiding liquor bottles in his room. He was also smoking marijuana. I was asleep at night when he came into my room and stuck his hand down my nightgown. My life has been a rollercoaster ever since. It ruined my marriage and caused me a lot of harm. Not sure how to find my way back to sanity.
annt, welcome. I agree with Debbie, to find alanon support in as many ways as you can. I have used sponsors to help me along my journey, and the message board is rather helpful to me. I can write whenever I have time and most often, people will respond. One of the skills I have been taught in this program, is to take care of myself. It wasnt easy to learn this, but I no longer have to suffer, and especially, I have resources now to help. Be gently with yourself.