Thursday was not the best of days but that is when I need to keep the focus on me even more. I think I think too much instead of just going with the flow and riding with the tide, my mind is chattering away over analyzing and having to ruminate on everything instead of just being quiet so my self-care Thursday is a start of something and that is mindful meditations where I gently Bring myself into the present, the past is gone, the future is not here yet so all I have is right now and today

So to add to my self care regimen Will be mindful exercises where I am doing nothing but deep breathing and focusing on my five senses while I am breathing and focusing on my breath I silently make note of what I see and what I smell and here and what sensations on my body that by default forces me to stay in the present and to not be inundated with mine chatter

when I was living with my alcoholics, I was constantly in thought, trying to anticipate what would be the next move, the next outburst, was it safe or did I have to be really careful and hyper vigilant and it developed into this habit of running away from my own feelings and over analyzing and to this day I still struggle with that. So now I get to focus on me like the slogan says

It takes practice to be mindful of what I am doing right now and to stop the endless mind chatter