The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I turn my will and my life over to my HP every morning. My days go pretty good when I am able to do that and just let go of everything and everyone else and trust.
The days I turn my will and my life over then yank it back,chaos and drama ensues. There's stinking thinking,anger,resentment, hopelessness,etc.
It's easy to want to let go but sometimes it's hard to actually do. Hopefully with practice it gets easier.
Thanks for your service Debb and for all the above ESH. When I entered program a number of years ago, I came with a chip on my shoulder. After years of being dependent on (sick) others, I had reached a point after my divorce to my husband that I could take care of myself. With my second addicted spouse, I found myself in utter turmoil, and only after giving up on all resources I thought I had, I needed help. I felt begrudgingly to turn my will and my life over to God, as it had taken me years to get strong and independent. But nothing else worked to get me out of the emotional hole I was in, so I gave all the Steps a try with a sponsor. And of course, it is working, restoring me to health or perhaps giving me health for the first time. Grateful member.
Thanks Debb for your service/ESH and everyone's shares. My plans for today fell through and instead of being peeved, I thought oh well, maybe God's got a better plan. And He did! Step 3 (faith) review and shares on this and other threads led me to spend time working further on Step 4 and touch base with my sponsor. Also, I accomplished more physical tasks using less energy . I am a mixed bag of emotions so I'll dedicate the rest of the day to self care. Enjoy the rest of your day.
"Made a decision..." ...and this is a process- of establishing a relationship with our higher power.
My higher power is gender neutral. And, as we say- we take what we like and leave the rest. I had a three day awakening when I was 20.
It did not change my life markedly- it was a living nightmare- but I have made it to today- and counting the days!
I was busting to get to a meeting- and was at the first meeting every held in my community.
This gave me a good idea of how groups start and grow. And the part that each member plays in any group. I see groups as a process, and not a product. ...
My concept of higher power has evolved, or morphed. The intellectual part gets tweaked from time to time.
I had lots of compassion for others- heaps. But not for myself.
I think I found a balance here- and chose to call it ~empathy~.
I.do indeed have to let go and let go. Today I learned I will have a couple of hundred dollars less next month for two years. That is a big hole in my.budget
Every month it is something new. Normally I would go into a tailspin over such news. Now I can let go. It is very disappointing
I am working in moving to another level in my plans. This news has to mean I have to revise my plans once again