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Post Info TOPIC: Hope for Today Dec 13


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Hope for Today Dec 13


Good morning everyone-

Todays reading is about our feeling of belonging in al-anon. The writer describes having come to the program because of his/her 16 yr old daughters drinking.  The daughter entered the rooms of AA but after some years, made a decision that the drinking was all about adolescence and not alcoholism.  The writer began to question whether or not he/she still belonged in al-anon.  The writer maintained consistency and continued attending meetings, hearing shares that resonated and realized that if he/she was affected by someone elses drinking, al-anon was the place to be.

This reading brought me back to my first meetings. From the first time someone suggested that al-anon might be a good fit for me to the time I attended my first meeting was about 15 years.  When I finally got into a meeting I felt on edge, anxious and defeated.  At that time I felt that by attending the meetings I was admitting there was a problem, which was a negative thing, not seeing that what I was actually doing was freeing myself from the feelings of anxiousness and defeat and opening up to support.  I spent plenty of time second guessing whether or not I should be there, and even have days now, when I think-  was I feeling a problem more acutely than it actually was?  One thing that al-anon has done for me is remind me that my feelings then, today and going forward are valid.  As the thought for the day states: My membership in Al-Anon is about my feelings, not someone elses beliefs.   The quotation from Paths to Recovery(pp.155-156) adds: It is up to each of us to decide whether we belong.

I hope everyone enjoys a peaceful Sunday!

Mary



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Mary, love the topic today and your avatar! I too felt when I arrived on the doorstep of Al-Anon, some 6 years ago. that maybe this was not the right place for me.

I quickly discovered that I had indeed found the right place and it was the answer to all the pain and anxiety I had suffered for almost a decade and had no idea
it was caused by this disease.

I was so beaten up emotionally and Al-Anon has most certainly saved my sanity and here I do belong. So very grateful!

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Good morning MIP! Thank you Mary for your service and the daily. Thank you both for your shares and ESH. It was my children that brought me to Al-Anon, yet it is my own 'isms' that keep me attending. While my journey has changed and I am able to find more peace, those I love continue to battle this disease. I hold on to hope that their journey becomes more calm, peace-filled and healthy.

I do recall how utterly defeated I felt when I arrived at Al-Anon. I felt like a failure, a horrid mother, wife, daughter, etc. I had allowed this disease to affect each and every aspect of my life. I avoided others as I felt so very alone and broken. I obsessed, worried and lived in a total reactive state to what others were/were not doing around me. I went to bed with dread and woke up in the same mental state most days. I was so afraid of this disease in those I love, I stayed home/in the house thinking I could somehow prevent any 'worse case scenarios'.

It took a long, long while for me to trust this program and even more time and effort to begin to practice what was suggested. I heard the three C's, tried to embrace and battled still as I tried to practice being/doing differently. Slowly, with the support this program, a great sponsor and those who came before me, I began to have some hope and some peace. To this day, I still do what was suggested each morning and through-out each day.

One day at a time, I can recover. One day at a time, I can trust this program, my HP and my progress. One day at a time, I can find peace and joy in spite of what others are/are not doing around me. I too am a grateful member of Al-Anon, and plan to stick around for a long while. Happy Sunday all - make it a great day....I'm excited for some Football!!!

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Mary, thank you for your service and today's reading. I too felt that coming to Al-Anon was a negative thing, but one I finally had to do because I had to admit that alcoholism was in my marriage, that it wasn't going away, and that I had reached total hopelessness. But I did feel I belonged there, and that was a good thing.

Today, my doubts about Al-Anon are different, and they are just as pointless as avoiding Al-Anon. Thanks to my higher powers and to working the program every day, my life is incredibly joyous -- so much so that I hesitate to share it with newcomers because they might feel I don't have anything in common with them or that I don't understand their misery. I don't feel the urge to tell the story of how I got here, because I've told it enough times already, enough to get the burden off my heart. I certainly would tell it if I think it would help someone. I can share my gratitude, for sure -- but I wonder if that's boring. Or does it give people hope? Well, it gives me hope for sure, so I guess it's a good model of taking care of myself. Just thinking out loud here --- and I still have some work to do on concerning myself with what other people will think!!

It's raining where I am today, and I love rain, so I am extra grateful!! I hope you all have something to be grateful for today.

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Happy Sunday, Mary!! Thank you for posting the Daily and your service!
I hope that you are continuing to stay safe and healthy in your job.

I am very grateful to all those who have shared their personal ESH.
I remember the counselors at my spouse's first rehab telling me that I was part of the problem and that I needed to attend Al-Anon. I must say, I was super angry at that! How could I have caused this? I had worked for YEARS to make this marriage/relationship work! I begged, pleaded, covered-up, paid debts, made excuses, went to 11 years of marriage counseling, was intimate when I didn't want to be... you name it, I did it. Anything to get my spouse back to the person I married. So yeah, I wasn't happy about the thought of attending Al-Anon. What started out as just another attempt at doing something for my spouse, to help my spouse... became my lifeline!!

Although, it did take a LONG while for me to realize my part in the rollercoaster ride. I had a hard time admitting that there was a problem... a problem with the marriage, a problem with how I dealt with the spectre of addiction, and even the thought that perhaps I did not choose the right person for me, to marry in the first place!

But I now know Al-Anon is the place for me! A place where I can be honest... where I feel accepted and not judged... where I can learn new and healthier behaviors!

 

I am off to make Toffee!! It is something my mother and I have done every Christmas (except last year). She can no longer cook, but her presence is all I desire! My son has expressed an interest of learning, so he will be there as well! A great Sunday indeed!!

Grab some JOY today and run with it!!

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