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Hi y'all... Spring is here- but the mornings are still cool. So I did my Step 11 in bed- stretched out like a cat.
A good healthy cough often kicks starts my day. I have done a lot of breathing work over the last 5 years. Much more idea now of how a healthy body works. I do my meditation when I wake up- and do the cat-calesthenics when she gets up for work.
Before my breathing break-through I had a death with- or chronic suicidal thoughts. I worked out that this was omen that my lungs were full of fluid. And my body was sending me warning signals- which I did not understand. As a child I had been grossly neglected- and I grew up with this as my norm.
The C2C slogan- awareness-acceptance-action has been a mantra for a while.
My thinking reflection this week was in acceptance in the serenity prayer. "To a c c e p t the things I cannot change.
This has, in the end to be an effort of will, rather than a default position.
In order that I actually let go of stuff.
A decision to wrote this share, too is a part of the process.
Don't have to wait for a f2f meeting... where other subsequent issues will intercede...
I wanted toad to my share this morning, rather than start a new one.
I have always experimented and ventured out- as a form of survival.
Over time my power boundaries have improved a lot. [And they needed to!]
But that was all about learning. I grew up in an environment where I think I lost my capacity for learning really.
I felt like I was faking it at school-... I could fill three pages full of words- and that got me through- up to a point.
In my life I went to university four times and passed once.
My employment was mainly field work- and I started stooped labour while I was still at school, harvesting carrots. At the same time I was race cleaning too. We needed to irrigate our pastures and trees, and the water came in old mining races.
Mostly I worked on farms and orchards. I needed up trying to compete with, and outpace, migrant workers.
As a kid I was hopeless at throwing and catching balls. At work I taught myself to be ambidextrous and can now throw and catch like a pro.
Because I dipped out at a desk job- I put my heart and soul into recovery issues. Learned as much as I could.
I work two programmes, these days- and maintain my base with Alanon FG.
Thanks for reading.
My posts are not agony aunt issues any more- so I don't expect a lot of readers. ...
Hi David. I always enjoy your posts. I like the 3 A's and these last few weeks they have been very important to me, along with accepting the things I cannot change. Today I'm doing my Betty homework: Gratitude is for program, Slogan is Let go and let God, and my Asset is that I keep trying.
Breathing is such an essential task. The smoke from the fires js clearing and that is a big helo.
I have asthma which is oresently not that big an issue. However when I get the flu it goes straight to my chest
I believe i had the COVID bug earlier this year. That was like having a lump of concrete on my chest. I had to lie orone and even then it was really hard to breathe
I know my breathing issues started from a home which was suffised in cigarette smoke. My parents smoked, my susters smoked. I was the only one who didnt smoke and I am the one wuth asthma.
I wish I could live somewhere away from COVID madness. Every day it is hitting up.against brick walls. Most people are working from home. The schools are closed. The Universities are closed.
There is no getting used to the constantly changing regulations. Without al anon I would be stewimg in resentment and self pity. I am an exoert at feeling the victim. Now I have to becone an expert at moving on
Thank you for your cobsistency. Even though you don't have yo deal with the COVID madness. everyday you are challenging yourself to do better
Doing better for ne is going to be a long hard road
Maresie
Hi y'all... Spring is here- but the mornings are still cool. So I did my Step 11 in bed- stretched out like a cat.
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