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That isn't a strange feeling and I hope it isn't for others in the family either. It was a hug warm and close and I didn't question why as I wasn't asking HP for anything special yet it gave me security as the day went on and then I came too understand that today is Anniversary Day here. Today 2/8/2020 is my 41st year of recovery and a daily relationship with Al-Anon and you all and my High Power. I get to be reminded that my life and the life around me is reality, serene and sane. I get to be totally awake and aware of what I am doing and the consequences I desire.
Mahalo to all of you who have supported my recovery. (((((MIP)))))
(((Jerry))) - I got a visual of you embraced by HP and it was absolutely full of love and light! I am humbled and honored to be in recovery with you and appreciate your ESH/shares more than you know! Keep being you, one day at a time my brother. Huge (((Hugs))) !!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
This actually is a usual feeling for me that includes a spiritual experience I had in 1989 in a motorcycle accident I was in which caused me to openly and out loud announce that "I am afraid" which isn't something Jerry F would ever do before this. I got a verbal response from HP immediately "You are no longer hurting, you're healing" is what HP told me and just after miracles have been repeating in my life including then when the surgeon showing me xrays of a then broken ankle before turning into no sign of a break at all. I do have 6 pins and screws where the break was and after .no sign of a break. "I know why I decided to use the pins and screws he said with the xray showing a separated break. But now I don't know why it needed it". "There is something going on I don't understand, He said." This miracle extends for years including my anesthesiologist being a man I sponsored in Al-Anon who also witnessed the continuation of it.
Last night I used again the spiritual understanding, "You're no longer hurting...You're healing (always...my understanding)". That is a truth. Keep coming back ((((hugs))))
-- Edited by JerryF on Sunday 9th of February 2020 11:40:10 AM
You are now 41 years in recovery - well done and congrats on this achievement...
I was just doing some quick math, and I am roughly 20.5 years in recovery, and that would mean that I am roughly 50% as smart, experienced, and wise-owled as you are.....
Wheeeeee!!! :)
Tom
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"He is either gonna drink, or he won't.... what are YOU gonna do?"
"What you think of me is none of my business"
"If you knew the answer to what you are worrying about, would it REALLY change anything?"
Ha.ha.ha.ha.....I got a chuckle out of your share Tom! I'm between the two of you and wake up most days feeling wiser when I'm in the dark. The more I think I know, the more my brain hurts...
I am grateful for the continued healing that you experience Jerry as it allows you to give more to all of us! I often sit in absolute AWE of how recovery works in that we are renewed, strengthened and blessed through other imperfect persons willing to share....and then we, in turn, find the courage to share our own experiences, strength and hope and so it goes. When I sit back and really 'see' recovery in action, I can no longer refute the existence of miracles all around me/life.
Happy Monday MIP family - glad to be a person in recovery - it's a great ride!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
There is no me without a we...I got what I got from the uses and wes' of our program and I am still alive because of it...no lie!! Thank you HP soooooo much!!!! (((hugs)))
I am a little late to this party, but congratulations on 41 years of program learning!
I love how you share your thoughts and experiences freely... "always learning" I think to myself when I read your posts!
I also enjoyed everyone's share on this thread.
I think "You are no longer hurting, you are healing" could be a great mantra for me. May I steal it and use the heck out of it? LOL!
Mahalo Jerry!
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"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
Sister everything I have been given by HP and HP's tools are for us to use toward our recovery and to help others in or out of our program. Of course I don't get to control outcomes yet if what I have received helps me it is also to help others. I have had honest miracles in my life witnessed by the fellowship and others who have been involved trying to help. I get to have the miracle and the wonder of watching others claim to be affected.
I would like to hear others mention their own miracles. (((((hugs )))))
"You're no longer hurting...You're healing (always...my understanding)".
Dear Jerry, I loved this saying as well...I know I am not really a full time part of this family, but I CARE about this community and LOVE reading progress/miracle stories...Your posts always reflect the positive , like it completely negates the negative
Last night I was awakened by pains in my chest...I was not frightened, in pain, but not scared..I put myself in the hands of my HP...I am older..I am OK if it is nearing my time...I just HOPE and shall, as long as I can, be a vessel of light and love and hope to my fellow travelers in recovery..I saw last night that we only have today..Thats it..No guarantees for a tomorrow...So how can i give love and light to my fellow creatures today???? I want so bad to visit my elderly little lady up the street as I am the only one who visits her and makes her laugh, but I am so fatigued over last nights "episode" I must rest today, but will call her later....I am hoping I feel up to playing games with the assisted care elderly folks on Saturday...Oh well..One day at a time...
I've learned much from you..Resting today!!! Giving gratitude to HP for getting me into recovery and working in my heart so I CAN trust my HP, I am willing, ready, and very very glad to hand over the outcomes...Never thought i would say that, but hanging out here and co-moderating next door, listening and learning, I am so glad I got into recovery and this MIP site has been my saving grace
YOU are a miracle, Jerry....41 years...Holy Moly!!!! AWESOME....you beat my GF/Sponsor...Shes 32 in recovery....LOVE it!!!!
-- Edited by mamalioness on Thursday 20th of February 2020 06:13:17 PM
Aw Rose you are such a pet sister for me starting from your smile and pose that keep me humble. I only have one day at a time also which I try to greet and participate with awe and humility and gratitude. I know often that HP loves to hear us laugh, giggle and dance and sing. Lets do it often...daily. ((((hugs))))
Brother Jerry - I'm one who really, really tries to keep things simple - just flows better for me! I love miracles and get just as tickled at small ones as I do at larger ones.
Just a few today -
1. My keys were not in their place. This is truly a rare event as I've got some OCD, so everything has a place and I rarely deviate. I was beginning to get frantic as it doesn't take much (with OCD) and I did what I always talk about - I paused, prayed for help and then went forward with the search. Within 1-2 minutes, I had my keys! Small gift from HP ... a mini miracle.
2. I woke up this morning and was missing my Golden Girls cousin who passed right before Christmas. Each time since she's passed that I've woken sad or missing her, my HP has gifted us with an incredible sunrise! Without fail, our sunrise today was spectacular! So much so, that every news station was in awe over it and trying to show it - the camera colors/shades/cloud effect is pointless compared to the real thing. Medium Miracle from HP - love, love, love!
3. My youngest is finally moving out at the end of the month. We were able to sit down and have an adult discussion, pleasant, productive, laughter, etc. He's 25 and outside of a treatment center or a jail/prison we've not been able to do this. Large Miracle from HP - my heart is smiling.
4. My sweet geriatric dog has terminal kidney disease. She's not in any pain (yet) just fading a little bit each day. Because I'm able to trust my HP to tell me what comes next, she's getting tons of extra love, walks, pets, hugs and outdoor time! I could not find her when I got home from golf today, and almost panicked! She's very hard of hearing so slowly came jogging up the hill in the backyard. For whatever reason, she chose a different place to enjoy people watching. Immeasurable miracle from HP - seeing her coming towards me, excited and full of unconditional love.
5. I spoke to a golf gal plan that I've not talked to in a while. I told her we were switching country clubs so I'd only be at/with the other club through end of March. Well - she and her husband are also making a change and they landed where we are! I've been a little fearful about having to find a whole new golf group and now I know one! Another small/medium gift from HP - as with the rest, expected/unexpected - my HP really does have my back always!
I could go on and on and on and on! When I trust in my HP and just do the next right things, I am continuously amazed at what unfolds. I opted to go and try a brand new meeting today. The time was way better for my plans and I've been wanting to explore a change to my Saturday meeting. It (the meeting) or I have become stale and my mind's been wondering at it. It was a great meeting - lovely people - and I may/may not return next weekend. I can get so wrapped up in 'my routine' that I forget change is good! Another nudge from above that was unexpected and rewarding!
In early recovery, I really wanted to see/experience a 'burning bush' miracle. Not entirely sure why, but really wanted that! It's through good sponsorship that I've come to accept and appreciate the many small events in a day/period of time, as a collection of miracles HP provides!
My biggest miracle of all - I am still alive (don't deserve it and certainly didn't 'earn' it with my earlier life choices). Not only alive, but married for almost 30 years, have 2 sons + 2 grandsons. It's messy, frustrating, complicated and at times extremely insane yet I wouldn't change one thing if I could. Every up and down in my life has made me a better, stronger, gentler, kinder fellow human being, trudging the road to happy destiny!
Love and Light brother - we are the miracle(s)!!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
So I woke up from my nap as my step daughter and friend were approaching the door and alerted my wife. Her friend was (is) the cutest of all the girl friends from 20 some odd years ago and I hadn't seen her from all those years. They came into the house and I was just coming out of a nap when she came over to shake my hand to which I said "no no no we (you and I) do shake hands you're more special than that" and then I told her yesterday I was looking at a picture from the past where my daughter and other of her friends were in group posing for the picture and my eyes were focused on the most lovely one there and with a lowered voice "you". We laughed; they are all adults today with kids, grandkids and more and still beautiful. HP to me is an artist and I love HP's creation.
This was a moment of happiness and gratitude as I have been having trouble in my relationship with my wife and her emotions which cause me to understand again that not all blessings come in the same box.
I am a former therapist and have diagnosed (lol) my wife's condition as ODD oppositional defiance. I could be wrong and it could be ADD attention deficit disorder or CHC creepy husband condition. Working the program Love and prayers ((((hugs))))
Aw Rose you are such a pet sister for me starting from your smile and pose that keep me humble. I only have one day at a time also which I try to greet and participate with awe and humility and gratitude. I know often that HP loves to hear us laugh, giggle and dance and sing. Lets do it often...daily. ((((hugs))))
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Jerry)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) My dear brother, Jerry..Again, you bless me with your gentle, loving wisdom........your "diagnosis" of your wife, made me laugh..out loud, I am laughing.......BIG hugs to you for giving me a giggle..
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