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I wanted to share the story of the camel with you. I treated myself and hubby to some early Easter gifts: 2 books on recovery for him, 1 for me along with the coin. The coin on one side says ODAT and has a picture of a camel on it. The other side of the coin tells this story:
"The camel each day, goes twice to his knees. He picks up his load with the greatest of ease. He walks through the day with his head held high and stays for that day completely dry." I love that saying. It's such a great reminder for me not to stay dry but to keep on going.
Last week my posts were a bit down. Apparently it had some of you concerned, as witnessed by my PMs. Thank you all for your love and concern. I was angry and miserable, at my hubby, his disease, at work, at the world, and yes even my beloved cat. Couldn't really figure out why I was. Nothing out of the ordinary happened, but I was just miserable. I was emotionally and physically exhausted. Didn't want to do anything, see anyone, or care about anything.
But I had forgotten that I ordered our gifts, and when I got my coin the lightbulb went off. Suddenly all those feelings were gone. Why? No answer to that. Maybe HP finally kicked me. Like the camel I got up and at it again. I can carry the load! I can go to my knees and get back up with the greatest of ease (maybe a littel creaking in the joints lol! ). I can focus on my recovery. I can hold my head high. I can stay dry for that day (well sane at least, as I don't drink).
I have come to the conclusion that I just had to let all those feelings be there, so I could get stronger and better. So I can be that camel. (I've always said that when I really mad I could just spit! lol ) I am a human being with real emotions, both positive and negative. It's what I choose to do with them that will set be ahead or set me back in my recovery.
So family, thanks for all your love and concern and support as usual. Hubby is hanging in there, although he's sick with the flu and layringitis. He's making progress and wiser choices, although every day is a battle for him. I am getting back to my positive self, although I am exhausted from work. Pipers Kitty is her usual goofy self waiting for the arrival of the Easter Beagle!
Love and blessings to all of you. Have Passover! Happy Easter! Live strong.
Love, Karilynn, hubby and Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
I am glad you are back to your old self again. Remember we are always here when the load gets too heavy. Actually I was told that cats pick up negative energy so watch out when you are in a bad mood Piper could go from a placid pussycat to a grumpy tiger.lol Luv Leo xx
). I can focus on my recovery. I can hold my head high. I can stay dry for that day (well sane at least, as I don't drink). 