The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I don't feel as isolated & terrified of the outside world. For so many years I have gotten to the place where I felt isolated & alone. But not today. I am certain that I need to be among the living. I was told that you have to share your recovery. I am not supposed to be alone all the time. I have to be available to others who may need me even if it is just a hug, smile or hello. Sometimes it is easier to just be. I am not responsible for someone else's issues. I can only do what is in front of me & stay out of their way. The fact is that I am very slow in recovery. I have been a member for many years & I have horrible slips. I have been in the lowest of lows but today I only have "today" 24 hrs. to work with. There is no cure for the disease & there is no cure for my mental illness. I am in remission.
The program has taught me that we can all have a united front to share w/ people in & outside of the program. We just need the willingness to be open to give what we have. We can't give something we haven't got.
So, I need to remind myself that I am useful not useless. I am a winner not a loser.
Thanks Kathleen for sharing your progress with accepting yourself as you are. When I find myself comparing and despairing, I become lost, separated from my higher power. My thinking becomes distorted and I believe I am journeying far behind my fellows in Alanon as well as others. Of course my hp has never left me and I am right where I am meant to be. If I slip as I journey, I can ask for help from my hp by using the Serenity Prayer. I can break my isolation from others by sharing more of myself with others who are a part of my in person recovery community by attending meetings and through volunteer service to my groups. Making the coffee or setting up the chairs at my meeting can help me to get out of my shell, feel grounded and give me a sense of belonging again after losing my way. It restores my sanity and from a more balanced place emotionally, I can be more open to listening, learn and continue growing as my higher power wills one day at a time. Thanks for sharing the road with me (((Kathleen)) Glad you're here and shared. TT
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Surround yourself with people and elements that support your destiny, not just your history.
Thank you Kathleen for sharing your recovery. I am reminding myself to be Open.
Glad you are feeling strong!
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"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
Great share Kathleen! Love the inner strength you have and you are absolutely spot on - you are useful!! I am glad you're part of my recovery!!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
