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I am in a grateful place finally. Its been an incredible painful journey but I am finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. My daughter who has serious mental health issues and in hospital currently, is making progress. She had been charged a few years back with assault on a police officer and the l;aw caught up with her and she ended back in hospital, very sick. On Saturday, met with her psychiatrist who advised she is very sick and the crown has dropped her criminal charges due to her mental state but she must follow a treatment plan, which includes staying in a rehabilitation program at the hospital and then onto her own housing. Higher Power is amazing. Then on Saturday at this great news in unfolding, I got served by the ex alcoholic bf, with a court order to sell the house! I am still in the house as we are co-owners of the house. Boom bang it just came all together. I had been in such worry and uncertainty and I thank my higher power I did not react and just be patient and let things unfold. It now is unfolding on its own and I am excited and what the next chapter of my life looks like. The stress I was under was unreal. I thought I would fall apart.
Now that I know there is a plan for my daughter and her treatment and the house, I can focus on the task of packing and moving process. I keep saying one step, one day at time, do the next right thing. DO not complicate the process. The best is yet to come!You can do it. DO not panic. Just start with gathering boxes and pack your daughter belongings, then start with your stuff. DO not panic! I am beyond grateful that I have survived this crisis and that things are slowly coming together. Yes, I am fearful of the what if's what if's that come to my mind but I say, trust higher power, trust higher power, it all going to work out. Where will I go? I have a plan to stay in the city where I am now living till I am secure that my daughter medical issues and housing is secure and she has all the supports she needs to live on her own. Then I plan to move home to my home town, that is 8 hours away. Will this plan work out? I can only trust higher power with the results. I know higher power has a plan that is bigger than me and I have to let go and let god! A miracle can happen at any time. I do not know. I just have to go with the flow. The other thing I am so grateful for is that I am still single, not living with anyone. Dating, i have not considered it. That too, i am leaving to my higher power. If I am to meet the right man, it will happen on god's time table. I just pray and let it go! I have prayed about meeting the right man, but at this point, I have no desire to start over in another relationship. I have been too stressed dealing with the house and the ex and my daughter. Its been to much for one person to handle. I now say, god my life is in your hands, let your will be done.
I so need a vacation, to a nice warm place! That too is in god's hands if it will happen. I just have to take things one say, one step at time. This board, it has been a life saver! Your all amazing and I read all the messages. It has helped me so much!
Joker it seems like the opportunities for changes are happening for you and your Higher Power maybe setting you up for sanity and serenity. God I remember coming to that understanding myself and how I found myself kinda sorta on a foreign planet...what was I gonna do??!! One of the things that was revealed in program was "Don't do the stuff you have done before this or you'll get it all back in spades"!! which of course was exactly what I did because I had that habit of living that way. "My only problem in me and my only solution is God" has become a spiritual mantra for me over the past years of recovery. It comes with the voice of my former sponsor Don.T....Practice, Practice, Practice.
Blessings to you and your daughter and family. ((((Hugs))))
(((Joker))) - great update and so glad to hear that you've got care and a plan for your daughter as well as for your home! I love how you are trusting your program and HP to move forward - keep doing you....looks and sounds awesome on you!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Good to hear that you are in a better mental place! Keep doing the Next Right Thing, and you will get this!
Wishing you Peace.
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"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
Wonderful to hear/read Joker. This program is so miraculous and moves us always forward. We just need to keep building trust in HP, staying smack dab in today or this moment and you are doing that. Practice makes progress. Like the Beatles sang: it keeps getting better all the time...better better better...
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Wishing all the best on your recovery journey, Luv
