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The C2C reading for November 20 speaks about the joy we feel, as children in simply being alive. it points out how very important it is to not tamper with that joy . However when alcoholism enters the home this usually cannot be avoided. and our "spirits become broken as a result. Alanon offers us face to face meetings so we can connect with like minded member, new tools to live by such as the slogans, the Steps, the Traditions that help to heal a broken spirit.
Our healing begins when we stop fighting the god of others people understanding and find a God of" our own understanding" as this God can help to heal us and restore our bruised spirit. and our" true self".
The quote is from George Bernard Shaw:" life is no brief candle for me . It is sort of a splendid torch which i have hold of for a moment I want to make it shine as bright as possible before handing it over to future generations .
Alanon has provided me with the tools to do just that
this really hit it for me in a GOOD way Our healing begins when we stop fighting the god of others people understanding and find a God of" our own understanding"
All my life I did this...."fighting the god of others understanding" I didn't LIKE their god..I had no use for their god, but program showed me I can find my OWN of my OWN understanding.....the HP I have is within me and its always there...it can and is healing me slowly but surely....yep....I had to find my own HP....what I did was write down a list or a journal, "what would be a good god for me" and I made the list..listed all the attributes my HP wold have to have to be my best friend...sounds silly, but it helped me...."God of my own understanding" what works for me, what fits for me....yep......thanks for letting me know that I am not unique or different in my "used to" battling with the god of others.........
Thank you Betty for your service and the daily. The God of my understanding today is vastly different than the concepts I was raised with. Simply put, I no longer have doubt about who's in charge, simply put - not me. Recovery has taught me I get a daily opportunity to fight everything and everyone or instead Let Go and Let God.
Meetings for me are a safe place to just be. I don't have to be anything or anyone, I can just be present. I do believe that HP speaks through others to me, and I always seem to get what I need when I need it. I believe it's my role, one day at a time, to be present, trust the process, and do the next right thing.
Happy Tuesday to one and all - make it a great day!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Rose and Iamhere, I am grateful for your presence with me here today!
Yes, that was me... a broken spirit. I think I had never even considered how I had changed as a person until I began to inventory myself and realized I was so far from that original joy of childhood! I wore a mask. I recognized me clinging to traditions - all in an effort to hold onto that innocence and joy - but never really feeling it deep in my soul. I was broken. My spirit was broken.
And I wanted to be healed! But I just could not embrace the concept of God as I was taught... he had failed me. I am beginning to understand that what I need is the "God of MY understanding." That Spirit of Light knows what I need. I am trying to rebuild my Faith.
I find it odd... in Program we all learn that we have to "Let it Go"..."Give up our control to a God of our understanding"... and yet... yet... if you examine the relationship, if you believe in letting the "small voice within you" guide you... physically, you are doing it! Not someone else, not your HP.... YOU. So what is the difference from before? I think it is Humility, and the willingness to be have an Open Heart.
What I keep seeing in others I admire in Program is their humility. Their willingness to embrace that their way is not the "right" way... that there could be infinite "right" ways, and they are Open to embrace them all!
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"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
good post Betty. learning slow to look for and find the balance by keeping the mind and heart open for possibilities. fighting period is how most of us Learned to survive.
(((((((((((PosiesnPuppies))))))))))))))))) OMG....your post here, on HP, is the BEST ever post I read on the "HP" thingy...You thank me for being in your life, my dear friend, I thank you so much for your post....WOW!!! in my struggles (I'm Agnostic, sorta) with the HP thingy was "he/she" failed me, too...and yea, I need an HP of MY understanding..Noone elses...and I do believe in "Light energy" and I loved how you bring up the "small voice within you" guiding you...thats what I do..exactly what I do...and I agree...being humble, open and willing.....thats it!! thats the key!!!! I take a "dash" of Buddhism, a pinch of this philosophy, metaphysics, I take what works for me...Not anyone else, their HP is their business...MY HP, is my business...it has to be something that , by evidence, works for me...
I absolutely LOVE what you said!!! You are a treasure!!!!! much gratitude....I am so glad you are here..........love n hugs
-- Edited by mamalioness on Saturday 24th of November 2018 01:37:37 AM
My first sponsor told me, "if you dont' like the god you used to know/were taught about , FIRE it and find your own"
I didn't get what he was saying, at first, and I even laughed at him, but as I got deeper in the program, I saw what he was saying
To me?? we are all expressions of this great universe, we are all little "sparks of light" in this great universe of light energy, like little fire flies, we go about, "doing our thing" spreading our light
So how do I find my best expression....I am looking inside of me..to that part that was original, untouched, undamaged, unsullied by the awful life and people I was forced to live and live with...that part of me that always was b4 I came here to this crap hole I was raised in and continued in my own sickness..repeating my pain by allowing human spirit vampires in my life...
Now I follow that little voice in me more and more...if it doesn't feel right??? I DON"T...
