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So, I've been stuck in a horrible dark place for a few months. It's something I have to watch out for, the old black dog, comes to visit me every so often. On Friday, without much thinking, I began to plan for a better week. So, today, being Monday where I am, I woke up at 5.30.No kids around, they rise at 6.45 and I have family here to watch them. By 6am, I was meeting a friend for a light walk/run. Friend was a no show, but that was fine: just the thought of being obligated to a prior commitment was enough to get me out the door. Exercised for 15 minutes and went for a nice ride.
As I was returning, the sun was rising over the water, so I stopped to enjoy it. And realised in all the years I have spent here, ( on and off over three decades) this morning was the first time I'd ever caught the sunrise over this stretch of ocean in a state of sobriety. This realisation hit around the same time as the endorphins. It was so good! So just for today, I am trying something new, and trying to stay in the light filled moments. I feel much better. I will try to keep it up, one day at a time.
(((a4l))) - sounds absolutely lovely....the morning, the view, the sunrise, the effort. Sending tons of love and light your way!! Prayers for a continuation of a better day - just for today!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
((A41)) So pleased that you were able to appreciate the sunrise I have experienced similar awareness and was also amazed at the fact that I had never taken the time to feel and appreciate the beauty that surrounded me. Glad that you are beginning to feel better
(((a41))) Sounds like you had a beautiful start to your day, thank you for sharing. I too have had that black dog of despair visit from time to time. Good on you for making a plan and keeping that commitment to yourself. The beauty of mother nature always lifts my spirits when I get out there. The song of the birds early morning, a lovely sunrise or even a soft summer rain can be so calming. Hope you keep on keeping on and Keep Coming Back.
((((a41)))) Thank you for sharing a wonderful word picture, I'm enjoying the arrival of those endorphins along with the sun's first kiss. I think it is magical to see a familiar view with such a fresh perspective and memories of moments like yours sustain me. Thank you for the reminder.
My black dog appreciates a bit of exercise and seems to forget himself when I'm touched by nature!! Happy tail wagging.
Such a beautiful share! I could almost feel myself next to you, enjoying that sunrise! Keep in the light!
Peace
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"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
