So big laugh from me about my oldest .. I am honestly so proud of him at this point and that kid is so much braver than I am it's not even funny ... ironically the child doesn't know it and I get that too.  I have mentioned what it means to be a bumble bee .. you do because you just don't have any other frame of reference and it works out while other people are just completely baffled by it all. 

First off, I'm very stinking proud of him because turns out that he's staying on campus with a fully paid tuition/room board package .. woo hoo .. go kiddo.  Another 9 credits that are HUGE to his progress going forward.  Still trying to figure out some things regarding this years room and board .. however that's going to workout .. it just may take a moment.  The fact he even qualified after everything he's been through that first semester says exactly how well he's currently doing in class and I am very proud of the fact he's taken ownership of what's taken place and is finding ways to move forward. 

My kid has gotten a job at the moment (we will see if this lasts more than a month considering there will be work available this summer .. LOL) as an art model and yes .. and all that goes with it.  I have had some friends ask me how I feel about it and my response is even in my 20's I couldn't have done it, while I had the figure .. I just lacked the confidence.  The other issue is it's not a sexualized experience for anyone in the class it's very clinical and the way he views the body in general it is what it is.  I would rather this than stripping.  The money is very good, LOL .. not stripper kind of money however he's making more than I do hourly. 

First night was last night and he did awesome .. I think as he transitions I will be curious to see how he adjusts to it all.  It may be a situation he finds himself more gender fluid than one way or another.  It's very much wait and see how this works out.  He has always been very artistic so this really makes sense if I think about it all in terms of doing this as a job.  I don't have a prudish home however just modest, it's never been a situation of shaming about bodies .. ironically my youngest has always been more acutely modest than either my oldest or myself.  Meaning he doesn't even like running around without a shirt on in just shorts around the house and he totally hates gym for the issue of having to change with others. 

So prayers are out, fingers are crossed that this is a good vocation for a bit.  I teased him it will be something he will always remember in a positive light.  NO .. Dad doesn't know ... only because Dad would have a heart attack .. hmm .. maybe I could have that thrown out there in an email that had an attached camera for a quick picture .. lol.  I could live with that .. lol.  I'm still waiting for the coming out .. LOL.  Oh the phone calls and emails that will come from that .. LOL, I'm actually looking forward to it. 

Anyways, just thought I would point out sometimes it's just better not to know any better and try, if only because with new experiences comes new growth and at this point it seems very positive. 

Hugs S :)