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Hello Everyone! Today is my 2nd year anniversary in recovery and I thought I would stop by and celebrate with you, where it all started, and express my sincere gratitude for all of you who stuck by me and encouraged me when I was a crazy person.
I am so blessed to be a part of this fellowship and thank my HP every day for leading me your way.
Where I am today: I am active in my recovery. I am working my steps. I have a sponsor whom I love dearly. I do not know if my AH is drinking or not. Yesterday he was sober so I am thankful for that. I have hope that someday he will be in actual recovery rather than around recovery and I get out of my HP way for that to happen. I have learned so much and so proud of myself in the journey I have made to so, I work my program everyday and accept that I may not work in perfectly every day but I have it to rely on. I have stopped looking around the corner for what ifs and clues that I am headed to the Promised Land. Just for today I am where I am supposed to be and my HP will reveal to me what I need to do when its time for me to do so. I have healthy boundaries for myself and am not afraid to move them if I see fit to do so.
My daughter, is doing ok. Her perpetrator has gone to prison and she has just started her freshman year of college. My son is still rippin and running but I love him unconditionally and will be there when he reaches for the hand to get clean and sober. He no longer lives with me, I see him when he isnt drunk or high. I turn him over to my HP every night as I lay my head down. My mother and I have a great relationship. I no longer resent her keeping me in an alcoholic home. I have empathy for her and what it must have been like to be so afraid. As I stated earlier I dont know about my AH sobriety. I do not look for signs or try to control his recovery. We are still together. I have empathy for him, but I look out for me. Co dependent no more!
My ESH for any new comers today:
1. Keep coming back! It works when you work it and work it because I am WORTH it!
2. The steps are so beautiful! Each one is an accomplishment and solely belongs to me. I did that!
3. Do not be afraid to peel the layers of the onion, shed that layer of skin, underneath is something remarkable.....ME!
4. Each day is a blessing, a gift, and even if I practice theses principles in all my affairs some days just suck, and it's ok.
5. That red ball of serenity is my life line, I do not let go.
and finally 6. I am powerless over someone elses drinking. I cant control their thoughts, or actions. Some people look up into the clouds and see shapes and colors and beauty, others can only see rain. Who am I to tell them what they see is wrong? Who am I to judge their perception? I do not have to look at it though, I do not have get on that carousel and I can just wave to the alcoholic as he goes around and ask him from time to time if he is ready to get off. I stay completely to my side of the street. I do not create any chaos or force solutions. I just let it be ! The best advice I ever got from my sponsor was the 3 G's Get off his back, Get out your Higher Power's way and Get up and get going with your life. I have hope but it doesn't govern me.
Thank you for sharing, Suzann, so inspiring and awesome!!! I'm so grateful to Alanon now, and shares like these just lift my spirits and remind me that it really works when we work it!
(((Suzann))) - so good to see you - so glad you stopped by and shared where you are.....recovery does really look great on you! Glad to hear the offender of your daughter is locked up. Your share is totally awespiring and inspiring - keep working it and keep coming back!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Happy Anniversary, Suzann!
I had heard of the "3 G's" but no one has ever spelled them out. Thanks for sharing that!
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"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
